Sweat Betul

Do not fear for I am here! Luckily I did this video last week so at least I have something to blog about now.

Still very super busy with my exams until no time to shit also and I only ate a total of one orange in the past 4 days T_T cause no time to sit down and peel the orange also. I’m soososoossoso worried about my exam! But how I cheer myself up is I just keep telling myself that grades DON’T MATTER and I’m here to learn ok and if anyone dares to tell me otherwise imma hunt you down when I’m back in msia.

Anyway here’s a video of how I curl my hair. Again, it’s not perfect but it’s how I do it. I’m using a conair curler that I got from walmart for only $15 (rm45). Sorry maybe my hair color is too dark cause the curls don’t really show much in the video.

Happy curling! And I know the subtitles damn lame lah but I’m so stressed out from my exams can you just let me have some fun with myself in peace!

Also, you should probably apply some conditioner/ heat protector to your hair first before curling to avoid damage. Not sure where you can find a good one cause good ones are expensive so I only got a cheap $3 one which I only used once wtf. No wonder my hair like twigs now.

Oh yeah here’s another video I did for the mcD chant thingy.

p.s: sorry no time to reply all your comments but thanks anyway. No, it’s not as easy as just predicting how severe the US recession will be but we have to analyze each component of GDP and predict for each and also come up with our own policy recommendations. I’m taking the paper tomorrow sighhhh T___T good luck suet! thank you.

SERIOUSLY I’M SO ANGRY NOW!!! WHY DO I HAVE SO MUCH WORK TO DO HAH HAH WHY PLEASE TELL ME WHY! WHY DO I HAVE 4 FINALS AND 3 PAPERS!!!!

so angry!!! why do those professors think we have no other classes except theirs! why must they give us so much pressure! seriously why am i doing this! why am i studying econ and history of chinese civilization and game theory and french! why am i paying so much and travel so far to cause undue stress upon myself! why didn’t i just stay in malaysia!

why am i here why T___T i’m so stupid seriously today i was walking with these two other girls from my econ class and i was telling them i’m kinda scared for the econ final and they said don’t worry the midterms weren’t that hard anyway………..what do you mean! i got C for my midterm what do you mean it wasn’t hard T__________T

i swear i’m the stupidest girl on campus why i everything also cannot do ask me to differentiate native rulers and foreign rulers in ancient china also i cannot do! ask me to interpret confucius’ the great learning also i cannot do! ask me about my prediction of agg. expenditure due to the US recession also i cannot do T____T i can’t even decide properly when to use passe compose or imparfait T____T

why am i torturing myself why do i have to learn all this crap can i just go to some cooking/cleaning school where they teach women how to cook and clean and stay sexy until they die please!

Haih let me be the first to open such a school la. everyday learn how to sew/cook/clean/do makeup/stay slim only so fun. haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh mary lyon (my college’s founder) is gonna rise from her grave and haunt me for life wtf cause so un-feminist.

complain so much also no use still have to get back to reality….like now……………………………….very sad angry frustrated annoyed huuhuh maybe cause period coming also. why does it suck so much to be a girl huhuuh everytime have to waste money on pads/tampons/bras and if boobs not big enough then feel insecure if tummy not flat enough then get called a wild boar HAIH

anyway this is a video of what we do when we’re bored/how i release my anger/why we are the fun-est couple ever

I KNOW I LOOK DAMN UGLY BUT I’M SUFFERING FROM ALL KINDS OF SADNESS/TRAUMA AND I’M FKING PMSING NOW SO IF YOU SAY I LOOK UGLY I’M GONNA MAKE SURE I SEND 119048194 VIRUSES TO YOU

no i’m serious wtf

p.s: eh i suddenly have a great idea! should i just quit college now and become a full time blogger wtf i shall take one year to study the skills of how to be world no. 1 blogger and earn my living like that! great idea suet! *pats self and throws books away

p.p.s: most beautiful french song =)

I know everyone probably heard of this already but I’m gonna talk about it anyway. I’m so sour cause after I did my video, I found out from su ann that you can actually GET A FREE BIG MAC if you do this in any McD! More about it here and no this is not a scam!

But since I obviously can’t get a free big mac here (anything free is good T__T), I can do this! If you can take a video of yourself doing the Big Mac chant as creative as possible and upload it to youtube and send the url to BigMacChant@nuffnang.com along with your contact number before the 28th of May, you can walk away with RM10,000…..o.0…that’s a lot of money just by doing a chant wei!

This is how the chant goes:
“Two All-Beef Patties,
Special Sauce, Lettuce,
Cheese, Pickles, Onions
On A Sesame Seed Bun!”

After days of practicing, here’s our chant!

I know it’s not thattt creative compared to many others out there (trust me, theirs are like..out of the world kinda creative) but not bad lah ok for someone who is slaving for her exams now! Please vote for me and I’ll buy you a big mac if I win! I’ll allocate around RM1,000 to buy big macs for everyone who voted for me hahaha sounds like a deal!

And see! I did it in 3 seconds ok don’t play play!

This is such a fun contest, click here for more. $$$$$$ bigmacbigmac $$$

Ah, I remember my first fond memory of me eating a big mac..my first..and last. I was 12 and when my mom went to the toilet, I quickly ordered big mac for myself muahaha and when she came back and saw that I finished the whole big mac by myself, she was so sooo shocked! She never let me out of her sight again whenever I order in McD now but I will never ever forget my first and last big mac *big wet eyes

yeah so quick! Do the chant and let me know if you have done it! If you’re too lazy to do it then just vote for me okkkk (think free big mac think free big mac! although you can easily get one in any mcD too anyway but..ok just vote for me lah..)

1. Sorry I’m so busy now no time to blog at all so this is just a filler post. Someone’s gonna arrive today but I’m not telling who! I’m supposed to go pick him up from the airport later. Sigh I have two papers due in 2 days and 4 final exams after that, won’t have time to spend with him at all =( But the good side is at least I’m coming home in about 10 days!  I’m this close to char kuey teow, pan mee and claypot loh shee fun *salivates

2. I just watched MDG and eh I think Cindy looks really good with her new hair! And everyone looked great in the catwalk! Like professional models only.

3. Random vain photos of myself:

Haih I already warned you wtf

Oh oh! Why my fake lashes were so thick was cause I combined two of my fake lashes and made them into one! Cause too stingy to buy a third thick one and this works pretty well! Then I can take them off and reuse again if I don’t want too dramatic eyes. *beams at own creativeness wtf

Sorry only one pic of shanshan! I can hear the shan2 fan club going “damnnn” haha

4. I hate how people go “eh you wrote that weight post cause you want people to tell you you’re not fat right!” =____= Sigh next time I don’t need to blog already lah like this. I blog about being pretty then people say I’m too proud of myself. I blog about being ugly or fat people say I want attention. Sigh why is being a blogger so hard ah seriously. And please don’t comment saying I’m popular so people are jealous etc etc cause I’m sure there are people who think I want attention again =___= Next time let me just post pictures and not say anything wtf so nobody can twist my words around.

5. Oh yeah I forgot to mention that during my slimming-down days, I did something which I shouldn’t do. (no lah not puking all my food out) I ate very very little, like toooo little. I only ate 2 TABLEspoons of rice and 1 tablespoon of vege and maybe one small piece of chicken everyday. Somemore this was after all that 2 hours of basketball/track training. Big bad mistake cause as much as I did lose weight, I also did not grow any taller T____________T

I only grow 1 freaking cm a year for the past 6 years sigh I regret dieting so much. Seriously if I have a choice between being tall or fat I’d choose tall anytime and then concentrate on dieting later on in my life. So yeah, if you’re below 20 I don’t think you should diet that much. Exercise as much as you want but don’t starve yourself. Eat healthy but never cut down your food intake like me T__T 2 tablespoons huhuuh I don’t know how I did it. I think when I felt hungry at night then I’d just go to bed to sleep it off. And my lunch was usually just a piece of bun or sandwich. Bad bad diet.

6. wtf say no time to blog but can talk so much. I actually did another video of me curling my hair but I don’t know why the curls don’t show in the video. Maybe cause my hair too dark already ar? Aih whatever la so how to curl your hair is you just need a curler (obviously) and just curl lah wtf what kind of stupid tutorial is this.

7. The end

I’ve always been battling with weight issues since I was young. As long as I can remember, I’ve never been thin before (like normal thin or thinner than normal). I’ve always been chubby or fat or slightly meaty and I hate it so much. I hate going to a relative’s house and hear the same old “wah fatter already!” or hear people calling me fat. When I was 12, I had a birthday party in my house and invited all my ‘close’ friends. Before they left, they sat in a circle and sang me a song. It went like this:

Suet li suet li sangat gemuk!! Selalu makan dan jadi semakin gemuk!!

In the tune of the mat kool mat kool kawanku song. I was 12, it was my birthday and I got humiliated by my friends in front of my other relatives. Everyone laughed and so did I but little did anyone know how hurt I was inside. I told myself that I’ll always always remember that day cause one day, I’ll be the thinnest of them all and I can in turn laugh at them back. (failed)

During the holidays when I was 12/13/14, we would stay with our grandparents. My grandma would always make maggi mee for my siblings at night when they were hungry and forbid me from touching any of it. She’d also force me to jump on the trampoline outside the house while watching them slurp their maggi inside T___T sometimes, when everyone was outside playing, she’d make me do the jumping rope thingy and she’d sit there and watch me jump my fats away. I hated trampolines and ropes ever since.

When I was 15, I told myself that I cannot let myself be the butt of all jokes anymore. Guys calling me wildboar was too cruel for me to bear so during the holidays, I willingly tried losing weight. I cycled up and down the hill everyday while singing to my heart’s content, I built a basketball ring and board with wires and wood and practiced my lay up everyday and I even use the dunno what rolling machine that will tone your abs. Then, I went back to school and started a basketball team and joined the school’s track team with one goal: lose as much weight as possible. So in that one year, I lost about 8kg.

Yeah so I’ve always had an issue with my weight. My biggest secret after the one about my imaginary bf is that I’ve always wanted to be anorexic. I wish that I can cut my food up and not eat it, that I’ll be thin as hell and yet still feel fat so nobody will ever say I’m fat anymore. But sadly it never happened. I did try cutting my food to a million pieces but ended up eating everything =.= I tried hardcore exercise but always ate a lot after that so haih plan failed.

I swear I have superpower ok and my power is that I have a stomach made of steel..worst power ever. Aud told me when she gets diarrhea, she’ll lose a lot of weight and I’ve been waiting for the day I get diarrhea but either my stomach is way too strong or even if I do get diarrhea, I don’t lose weight at all. My bro has worms so he’s always thin and I always wish I’m the one with the worms instead but haih worms also lose to my stomach T__T

I’ve tried leftovers, spicy food, dirty food, accidentally ter-ate my nose shit (WTF DON’T ASK) but I will never get diarrhea lor! I only had food poisoning once in my life but I recovered 3 hours after that. When I got the worst fever in my life, I couldn’t eat for a week and yet I didn’t lose any weight.

So anyway why am I talking about all this cause I just found out an orange has 70 calories each T_________________________________________T and I just ate 6 oranges again today seriously I’m destined to never be thin. Yalah I know everyone sure damn unhappy cause I’m complaining even though I don’t look fat but that’s only cause obviously I won’t post unflattering pictures of myself. You have no idea how truly big my tummy is even after all that years of hardcore exercising. And my stupid ribcage and bones are so big until dunno what so I can never have a slim stature ok T_T

The worst thing is today when I finally weighed myself after a month of going to gym 3/4 times a week and eating less, I found out that I gained weight T_____T how is this possible you tell me is someone playing some sort of funny game on me ah! *memories of suet li suet li sangat gemuk and jumping on trampoline flooding back wtf T___T

I give up lah sigh I’ll just do whatever I want and weigh whatever lah I don’t care anymore! This battle with my weight is officially over! *lies to self wtf

I really just wanna be slim is that too much to ask for! I don’t wanna be meaty and yet so flat and have no curves! If meaty and well-endowed and got curves then nevermind la this one all also don’t have got one big lump which is my tummy only sigh.

*anticlimactic ending cause too sleepy already

SUPER a lot of pictures ahead. No time to really choose the nicer ones so haiya simply put all only! I’m blogging very frequently now cause we’ve been very socially active these days wtf unlike our normal nerdy selves. BUT all that will come to an end starting from today cause this week is the last week of class then next week is exam time T________T

Went to Senior Ball last Sat! Aud, Angie and Mild are gonna graduate this year omg please don’t get me started if not i’ll start crying buckets again T___T

Me with the girl with the most perfect hair in the world

Mild and Shanshan

With Angie

Hahahha damn ugly I wore my sports shoes to walk there cause didn’t want to walk in heels (changed to heels after that obviously)

Shan2, mild, me+baby wtf, aud, angie

Outside the hall

NO WONDER I HAVE THE BIGGEST TUMMY IN THE WORLD!!! go ball also still eating forever eating one but I already paid $15 so of course have to get my money’s worth right…I even tapau-ed the cookies back hehehe damn kiasu sial

Loving pic 1 haih see this pic also wanna cry already T___T how am I gonna survive without my two best friends here T___T

The seniors

Soulja boy dance wtf

Whose shoe is the dirty shoe!

Aud and angie with random glass

Loving pic 2

Super loving pic T____________T

their eyes are damn big wei mine pale in comparison

Loving pic 526521 T_______T

Story behind this pic: Suet said to angie “angie I’m gonna cry now damn sad why do people have to leave T_T” then angie said she’s really gonna cry too then we came up with an idea which was to camwhore more to prevent our tears from flowing out wtf but in the end we did cry a bit also T_______T saddest story in the world

Suet and her bf wtf wtf wtf

Shanshan and angie (her dress damn nice right!)

Yes I wore the same dress I wore on vegas night as well but it’s a damn nice dress ok! OK DON’T BELIEVE THIS PIC! because!!! I asked angie to photoshop my tummy away muahahha wtf

Original pic. See lah like 5 months pregnant how to show the world T_T but I don’t feel like my tummy is thaaat big also maybe I’m still in denial wtf

The end fuh! Actually I still have tonnes more in shanshan’s camera but i’ll post in the next post lah cause I know I won’t be going anywhere for the next few days so sure nothing to blog about.

I just realized something, after these three weeks, I’ll never get to take pictures with aud and angie and put them up in my blog again T_____________T damn sad damn sad damnddasadfkfksekg T_____T I mean I’ll see them again lah (and hopefully see aud forever if I marry her brother *big wet eyes) but it’ll be so different =(

This past year is the best time I will ever have in college because of our friendship and I can’t believe it’s gonna end so soon T__T What am I gonna do seriously! Who am I gonna speak Malaysian accent with? Where do I go to for help/gossip/hang out/camwhore/shop/bathe??!?!!?!? I’m dreading the 14th of may because I have to leave my two bestest friends but at the same time looking forward to it cause I just really wanna go home now.

Spring is here! It has been here for the past two weeks actually which is very good news =) On good days, it’ll be 24 celcius and on bad days, it’ll be around 15 celcius which is still really good!

It’s 3am now and I’m dead tired so I’ll just throw in pictures and call it a day ok?

Cherry blossom in front of Blanchard =D

Shan2 took this pic! very very nice! It’s my current desktop background

Yes I’m really addicted to oranges and I converted angie and shan2 to orange lovers too heh. I eat at least 4-6 oranges a day =S Please tell me there’s no such thing as orange overdose!

Haha shan2 asked me to go as near as possible and this is the nearest..that goose bites!

The college organized a spring picnic last Friday!

Hot dogs and hamburgers mmmm

All of us!

With aud and angie

Haha this is how we took that pic above

Shan2, me, mild, don’t remember =S, aud, angie

They gave us daisies!

Aud who hates the sun wtf

Mild and angie damn cute!

=D

I love spring! and picnics!

Blabla damn sleepy wanna die T_T

I got rashes after that wtf

Spring love <3

Barry bought me that bag!

Angie’s gang hahahhaha

Haih sorry for this lousy post but I’m so super tired now can die. goodnight everyone! I think I got more pictures on the picnic but nevermind lah always take the same faces only everyone also get bored already.

***DON’T READ IF YOU HAVEN’T WATCHED THE LATEST EPISODE***

Ok after a very careful analysis of the past winners of the wella products (I wanna win this so I don’t have to buy shampoos forever! Don’t have to buy shampoo=save money=happy suet! Cause if I get the RM100 I’ll surely spend it on unnecessary stuff and not buy good shampoo for my hair and risk having it looking like a bunch of dry twigs), I realized that those who criticized MDG will surely win one lor! And they also decorated their pictures with all sorts of stuff to show their effort and I guess like that only can show their determination kua.

So! I’m gonna do that too! What’s a few minutes of printing screen, pasting random stuff on those pics and thinking of bitchy yet funny quotes to a lifetime worth of shampoo!? Yes a lifetime cause frugal suet takes forever to finish her stuff. My biggest accomplishment so far has to be my 25ml free shiseido cleanser my mom got as a sample. She gave it to me last year in May and I’VE BEEN USING IT EVER SINCE THEN TILL NOW AND I STILL HAVE 1/4 OF IT LEFT! Sorry I don’t know why must shout maybe cause it’s a damn good achievement leh!! That’s like 3/20 of your 500ml bottle! And I’ve been using it for the past 9 months and still got 1/4 left! I’m seriously so so so so good. My secret is I wet my palm first and put a tiny 1mm blob and add a lot of water so the area/density/luas permukaan wtf will be more!

*big wet eyes. I should teach a class on how to be stingy wtf

Anyway talk so much still haven’t talk about mdg.

TOP 6

Adeline

I really like Adeline more now but why are her pictures always so..erm..ugly? Seriously her face damn ugly here compared to when I see her in the show ok! And is it just me but her right hand is so photoshopped? Her fingers are like watercolored or something.

Bah this picture is not impressive at all but I was very impressed with her Escada ad! She stood out the most with her pink dress and cute hair and very nice smile. She can definitely do commercials! (not just for unknown bakeries in genting hahaha)

Cindy

Before I show her latest picture I must show you this. WHY HER MAKEUP LIKE THAT!??!!? Eh is this some latest makeup thingy that I don’t know of ar color the crease of your eyelids only. Damn ugly until dunno what ok she looked so sad and kesian and made me feel like going there there here’s a piece of bread don’t cry

I don’t like her face in this picture at all cause like Adeline, she looks sooo much better in the video. But! I love her body here. Her shoulder looks great and I really like the purpleness of her dress. And why is her dad so annoying? GRR the way she talks to her dad is so annoying also lah as if they’re planning how to conquer the world only.

And that bit about what she said about how your friends will back stab you? Woot dramaaa! I’m pretty sure she was talking about Nadia!

EH chup I damn suck! I was supposed to paste random stuff in the pics to show that I put in a lot of effort but I forgot to T___T and now it’s too late cause I already uploaded everything sigh

HANIS

HANIS IS MY FAVORITE GO HANIS YAY YAY YAY! Damn biased haha some more I capsed her name but her picture is so FREAKING GOOD OK! Her dress looks awesome on her and her body damn nice also! hers is the only picture that I actually went wah not bad! BUT I don’t like how her arms were positioned. Why is her right arm covering her ear? Is she fengtao-ing ar?

Anyway if I can vote and if voting is free haha, I’d definitely vote for Hanis. Like Andrew from Andrew’s model said, she has the most potential here. She can work the runway (just need a tiny bit more practice), she can go for the commercial look and she can do high fashion too! AND the best thing is, she can still be everyone’s best friend! (as in she’s humble and friendly)

Except that I don’t know why but she doesn’t look like a model at all. If she walks into a room with the rest, I don’t think anyone will look at her first lor..

Eh is this an omen or something cause all the first three pictures are those who are in the top 3..coincidence? I don’t think so..

Jay

I take back what I said about Jay. I think the more I see her, the prettier she gets. Her body is super good and she rocked the runway during the mifa thing! (eh by the way two of my sister’s friends were in mifa also!) I think she’ll do fine even if she doesn’t win this competition lah so don’t worry jay!

Her picture isn’t that good, so were all her previous pictures anyway so no surprise here.

Nadia

HAHAHHAHA why they chose this picture!! Poor thing she must have felt so bad that they took the one of her in midjump! Her dress looks good here but her face………….haih and I liked Nadia but not anymore cause she’s damn loa (lack of attention) lah. not everything is about her ok! yakking non stop about boring stuff only all the time blabla I always skip the parts when she was talking one.

Ringo

Hmm…hmmmm…………………hmmmmmmmmmmmmm……..must think carefully first before I say anything. I’ve been following the drama in her blog halfheartedly as an entertainment in those lonely nights wtf. Let’s see..I think if we are to compare her picture with the rest, I’d say she did pretty well. (seriously look at adeline and cindy’s pictures lah damn ugly)

Her eyes are intense which is good cause noone else had that connection with the camera but her posture and position of her arms….it looks as if she’s gathering her qi in one of her kungfu moves before she can attack her enemy hahahaha somemore got the yellow dots all around her arms to show the movement of her qi.

I was SOOOO beyond surprised when she didn’t make it into the Top 3 considering that she has so many arduous fans. I think that she already suffered enough so please refrain from saying anything about that anymore ok?

I really wanted Hanis, Jay and Nadia to be in the top 3. Hanis cause she’s very versatile and humble, Jay cause her body is so good for a model, Nadia cause haiya she wanna win so much just give her la. I thought Hanis, Cindy and Ringo would definitely get it cause they have the most support so my prediction wasn’t too shabby I guess.

Oh well, I wasn’t very disappointed with the top 3 so let’s see what happens next! I really want Hanis to win and I think she will! What do you think?

Woot due to certain unknown pressure, I just spent 4 hours straight in front of microsoft word and I finished my paper o.0 And then I rewarded myself by watching MDG (omg! so unexpected) and I’m gonna watch my freshly downloaded new episodes of OTH and GossipGirl!!

Yay yay yay yayyyyyy!

Ok will continue blogging about mdg tomorrow since they still have the contest and I want RM100 so I can shop when I go back home!

xoxo you know you love me wtf

gossipgirl roxxor my sox wtf

I’m so stressed now seriously the word stress itself is not even adequate in describing the level of stress I have inside, outside, on top, underneath and all over me. My paper is soooo hard to write and I keep getting writer’s block every two words or so T__T I thought by choosing the best title ever, the isi wtf will come flowing easily but I was so wrong T__T I’m writing on the influence of religion on women’s role in premodern China (wahhh I told you right my title damn good) but that’s about the only thing I’ve written so far..

Haih. Just now we went to a dialogue between the Chinese and Tibetans students in our college. You all know what’s happening between Tibet and China right? Ok nevermind I’ll tell anyway. So basically Tibet has been under China’s control for a very long time and now Tibet wants to be free. Not just free as in gaining independence but they want to be able to have basic human rights that the chinese government hasn’t been giving them. On the other hand, the chinese government cannot give them independence because they think Tibet doesn’t have a strong enough government to govern their own people yet (after their long years of slavery problems).

Basically this is a very very complicated problem which I have one very good solution for. But being the naive and idealistic me, I didn’t wanna voice out my opinion lah later they laugh at me how. Ok so what I think is! I think the chinese government should just go “ok fine fellow monks and lamas, if you want independence so much, you can have it!” and see if they can really govern their own country. Then the world can see if Tibet is really capable of doing it and if they can’t then too bad lah they lose but i think every country should be given the right to at least attempt to govern their own people. Wait I know according to history, tibet has been given the right to do so and they kinda failed but haiya they so bising want independence mah give them lor right if they can’t do it at least everyone won’t say china is the bad guy now.

Sigh I dunno that’s why I never liked politics. Let me govern a country and I’ll go “all i want is peace..”.

Anyway let’s talk about my childhood! (damn random wtf) The other day I was talking to shanshan about our childhood cause she was telling me how she had to play alone since she’s an only child. Hahah damn sad one that’s why I never ever want only one kid. In fact I want 3 kids! But stupid barry said he only wants 2. Then I said nevermind I’ll skip my pill and get pregnant on purpose! Then he said he’ll kick me down the stairs if that happens wtf damn mean T_T

Last time when I was a kid, I used to live with my grandma in a very small town in Perak. It was really fun cause there were 4 of us including my cousin and we would play all sorts of stuff. Since we kinda lived in a village, we had chickens and all sorts of animals to play with. Sometimes we’d take out the chickens and rabbits and pretend we were gonna sell them! And when we played cooking we didn’t just use plastic cutleries and plates but we were allowed to play with real fire! We would pluck leaves and flowers and spat saliva. Sigh seriously village life was so fun.

I lived there for the first ten years of my life and never knew how to speak English. I mean, I probably learned it in school but I wasn’t that good in it since we only spoke Hokkien at home. In school, I spoke Malay with my friends (that’s why my malay super good) and sometimes Chinese I think. When I came to KL when I was 10, I hated it so much cause nobody wanted to be friends with me since I didn’t speak English =( My first few friends were Malays and up till I was 15, all my best friends were Malays. I found them much friendlier than other chinese kids who only speak English and were very snobbish to village people like me.

There was once when we just moved here, my sis was invited by this rich chinese kid to her house for a birthday party. My sis was so happy and so was my mom. My mom did her hair and I chose the nicest dress I had for my sis to wear. When we went to the girl’s house, we found out that there wasn’t anyone in there. In fact, noone lived there since there was grass growing all over and the house looked like it was abandoned for a long time. The next day in school, everyone laughed at my sis cause she actually believed that there was a birthday party…T___T I hated city kids for a very long time after that.

This post damn long but I’d do anything now but return to writing my paper haih. Anyway I still remember most of my childhood as vividly as ever. My grandma was very strict back then and she always punished us for everything. If I forgot to wear underwear to school (when I was 6 lah I didn’t like wearing undies), she’d make me kneel on the jagged parts of the bottle caps. Like you know, those bottle caps you play with. It hurt yeah but I got used to it so I’d rather kneel than wear undies wtf. That’s why my skin damn thick now haha. And she’d lock us out in the back alley or throw us out into the porch with a mattress for a couple of hours if we did something wrong. That’s why I never was afraid of the dark ever since.

Haha she was very creative with her punishments too! My sister would cry so much whenever our parents leave after visiting us (since they lived in kl that time) so my grandma would give her a bowl and said she have to cry till the bowl is filled with tears or else she can’t stop. She never cried ever since..

Sigh I miss my grandma so much. She used to be really tough and fierce but now she is such a sweet and benevolent old lady who cooks the best food ever. I was just talking to her the other day over the webcam and she told me that our dog died cause of old age T__T and that it’s about time for her too T______________T

I hate life why do people have to grow old and die T_________T I wish kids will never grow up so I can play with them forever and old people will never die T__T Huhuhuh I hate life and I hate hamsters cause they freaking eat their own babies (althought I knew this already but I just youtubed it and saw it with my own eyes). I hate hamsters..forever!!!1

Time to go back to the inevitable boo hoo.