Sweat Betul

 EDIT: Latest update, please visit this site to sign the petition. This is the only easiest thing you can do to help the victims of the bus crash and their families. Thanks! (remember, it could be you next..)
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I hate it here I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!!!!! I hate the familiarity of my room, I hate the hot hot shower I thought I loved, I hate the cold dining hall, I hate this whole damned place!!!!!!!! I don’t want to be here! I want to go back to Malaysia and study in some local uni. I don’t care how sucky the education system is I just wanna go back home =(

I know everyone’s gonna go “shaddaplah there are so many people who want to trade places with you now ok!” I know but it just sucks a hell lot to be so far away from home. You’d have thought that after 6 months, I would have gotten used to this but I’m not. I think of home every moment I have nothing to think about (which is always). Seriously, I’m so tired of making new friends and speaking this stupid pretentious language! Manglish is so unpretentious and so..unrestrained.

Ok fine, I’m just pms-ing. I know how much shit I went through just to come here and how much my parents have to work to get me here so I’m not gonna complain anymore. And..I want my baby here =( It won’t be that bad if he’s here. If only we’re in the same college and stay in the same room. If only the weather here is warmer than -20 celcius. If only they have better food. If only this is Malaysia *whines

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I’m a little late in posting this but I’m sure most people know about the recent bus crash right? In fact, this is like the 3rd? bus crash in the span of one year or something that was caused by an irresponsible bus driver. It’s so much worse this time around cause it actually took the life of someone one of my friends knew.

Reading about it in the papers and in so many blogs make me sooo sad cause this girl is just like any of us. Young, ambitious and so full of life. 21 is not the age to die without a reason. 21 is not the age to end your life abruptly. 21 is the age when you’re supposed to find out what you’re gonna do in the future. 21 is the age when you’re supposed to find the guy you love and want to marry. So I’m thinking. Thinking about how it could have just easily been any one of us, thinking about how you’d have to give up your life for someone’s mistakes, thinking about what must have gone through her mind moments before.

Shit man that’s so sad. Do you guys feel it too? Feel that something tugging deep in your heart as you think along with me. Although you don’t have a clue who I was talking about, although no one you know was involved in an accident before, although you kept telling yourself that nothing like this will happen to you, but thinking about it just hurts doesn’t it? Cause we all know that from what we know about our public transportation, that very well could be us too.

Anyway, read more about it here. We have to do something about these irresponsible parties.

And:

Please post this on your blog now to help:

Chung Lern and Nian Ning’s families would like all families and friends of the victims, dead or alive, in the Slim River Bus Crash to come forward and join them in taking action against the bus company. Stand up to seek justice for these three innocent individuals, who were all so young and full of life.

If you have a blog, please call out to ANYONE who knows someone who survived or did not survive the crash to come forward to join the Lee family.

Make a huge difference, make a huge fuss.

For now, you may contact Lee Chung Lern at chunglern@gmail.com or preferably on his handphone at 012-6670368.

Please help?

P.s: my roommate is…..indian! haha.

I’m leaving tomorrow and I’m so so sooooosososoososo sad T________T I don’t want to leave I want to stay here forever and be your companion!

I want to be the one who greets you with ‘baby baby babyyyyy’ when you come back from class. I want to be the one whom you cook indomie for. I want to be the one jumping on the bed and go ‘ok who can do the ugliest face to make the other person laugh first wins!’. I want to be the one to hug you when you get out of the shower shivering. I want to be the one you like to tickle to death.

This is by far our longest time together, ever. 6 whole solid weeks of each other, 6 whole solid weeks of not letting the other person out of your sight, 6 whole solid weeks of absolute happiness. I guess I’m not too greedy if I ask for 6 more weeks..or years? Sigh I don’t want to go back to studying! I somehow lost all my ambitions and now all I want to do is get married. and clean the house and take care of my kids wtf.

What happened to this girl who’s from a women’s college that says women have to be liberated and not stay in the kitchen wtf. I don’t mind staying in the kitchen if I get to see the person I love everyday *shallow wtf

The person I love digging my ear *big wet eyes

The person I love cutting my hair *big wet eyes.

Sigh so emo.

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We went to the city yesterday and after 3 weeks of staying at home, we finally got to shop! I told myself that no matter what I cannot buy anything cause my bags are soooo full already but. sigh.

In the van to the city

I love my skirt from F21! Only $10! Seriously none of my stuff is above $10 wtf

The pair of shades is only $10! according to my theory, I should fling my arms wildly whenever I see anything below $10. Alas, I didn’t get it cause I just bought a pair for $5 a few days before that. It’s really nice though =(

This one is also $10! I don’t know why he didn’t get it though.

Sigh tell me lah how can I not resist the temptation to buy this! It’s so nice ok and if it’s more than $10 I wouldn’t have bought it. The original price is $30 and and this shop is usually quite pricey one! *finds excuses wtf

And I bought this jacket also. I have like a million jackets like this but this one is velvet and has gold trims how can anyone not buy anything velvety that has gold trims! Some more it’s also $10………………………….

I like it a lot *big wet eyes

Ya allah boyfriend singing to beyond again………………….

Today we went Purdue to watch Evita the musical cause it was sponsored by his college! Mmm I love free stuff. My motto in life is anything free is good! My mom always tells me that nothing in this world is free but she is wrong!! I spent the whole bus ride there thinking of what possible ways did this not come free but I can’t think of anything at all therefore that proves that this is indeed free!

Also, yesterday when I went to the mall, there was this girl selling some hair straightener. She wanted me to test it so ok lah I went ahead and the straightener was really good cause you can use it to curl or dry your hair as well!!! But it was so freaking expensive, around $150 for that. I obviously said no cause that’s so freaking expensive okay! So there you go, I got that free makeover on my hair for free, didn’t I?? Hohoho wtf

Also, all the free food samples in Giant are also free!! I love food samples omg i love them with all my heart and soul. The only reason why I always follow my mom while she shops for grocery is cause of the free food. I’ll seriously run like a mad woman whenever I catch sight of food stalls! Ask my mom! wtf but she’ll probably just say she doesn’t know me wtf

Then I’ll purposely walk past the stall again and take more and more food muahahhaha! and not buy them muahahahha! I’ll pretend that the food is damn nice and I’m really interested in buying them. I’ll ask the promoter how much is it, what’s inside, how to cook it blabla just so I can stand there and continue taking more food muahahha omg why am I like this but who cares! It’s free! muahaha wtf sometimes I don’t eat lunch/dinner just so I can fit in more free food WTF I BETTER STOP TALKING NOW!

Eh seriously why am I so aunty!?!?!?!?!?!#?$?!%!%@# I seriously am always the aunty amongst my friends. If we decide to go picnic, I’ll be the one packing the food, bringing the mat and tissue and cutleries and other things that no one will ever think of bringing but will always need. Like mandarin oranges. Seriously who will think of bringing mandarin oranges to a picnic right?!?! But don’t be foolish! Mandarin oranges are the best thing ever to bring on a picnic! You can peel it slowly while chatting with your friends, feed each other lovingly, spit the seeds out on the ground and let them grow!

And I bring water everywhere I go! Whenever someone is thirsty, trust me to be there! My friends will usually go “aiyah suet why you so aunty one! But thank god for you if not I’ll die of thirst!” You need to sneeze? No worries, I have tissues! Period came? Oh noes don’t worry I have a pad for you! Fell down and scraped your knee?? No problemo, I have plasters, which size do you need? Do you want the transparent one, the colorful one or the normal one? Something got stuck in between your teeth? Here, a toothpick for you!

omg the more I type the auntier I feel wtf so let me end this now. The end wtf.

1. The Tzeching is back! She wants to smell fame again wtf

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I’m so stupid, stupid stupid stupid! Due to my hasty self, I downloaded my one tree hill one hour after it showed on tv and everyone knows tv shows don’t get uploaded that fast into bittorrent! But I did it anyway cause I was dying of boredom and was in need of my savior which comes in the form of a tv show.

After downloading it, they asked me to download some dunno what win xiz to unzip the files and I know, I KNOW, that that is definitely not good! BUT I really wanted like mad to watch it so I went ahead and download it without my will. So now guess what?! GUESS WHAT! I get 2 pop ups every fucking 5 minutes now T_________T And the worst thing is I couldn’t watch my show after that so I had to wait till the next day to download the proper file omg my life is so sad T_____T adultfriendfinder lah, ringtones for free lah what also got T____T

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Yesterday I asked my boyfriend to do his homework (yeah my job here is to be his nanny wtf everyday have to force him to do homework) then when I turned around guess what was he doing?!!?!?

omg he was singing to Beyond……………………………………………………………………………………………………..

First, about my boyfriend. He can’t speak chinese or cantonese and the most I’ve ever heard him say was “uncle, ka tan ok?” (add egg wtf to his pan mee) and that also I made fun of him for days and asked him to keep repeating that phrase wtf. He also hates all Chinese bands especially my jay chou and lee hom I dunno why am I still with him! no one gets away from hating my favorite singers ok!

So to hear someone like this actually singing in perfect cantonese was damn shocking!! Then when I went over to see, he actually had a lyrics site opened so that he could sing along with Beyond omgwtf!! Kam ting ngor..

Then usually when one of us comes out of the shower, the other person will go give that person a huge hug cause it’ll be damn cold but yesterday when I stepped out of the shower, expecting a huge hug, my..my..boyfriend..was…busy..listening to ..beyond again……………………………..I finally died of cold.

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My previous roommate (the one who was addicted to warcraft wtf) transfered to another school and now I have a new roommate T______T Her name is..dunno some weird long name lah. Suleka Gonadalapa or something wtf

I have a feeling that she is really weird..how!! She doesn’t even have a picture of her on facebook! Huhuh should I really judge someone based on their names and facebook? Of course not! She probably thought my name is weird too when she first saw it! “Suet Li Liew? What kinda name is that omg my roommate is a weirdo” and when she sees my facebook with a million camwhore pics she’ll probably think “omg my roommate is a vain pot!” okay think positive think positive!

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5. Sigh I’m leaving in 4 days. Back to good ol’ mt holyoke, back to studying, back to my lifeless self.

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6. Eh can I win the award for world’s most frequent blogger wtf I blog every other day ok! Some more not just a short post but all also super long windy posts.

Okay this is going to be my most most most embarrassing post ever of my most MOST well-guarded secret since forever. People who said doing something like hoping my crush will see me sweeping is normal, PLEASE TELL ME THIS IS NORMAL TOO!!! wtf sigh damn embarrassing lah I don’t know where to start.

Okay when I was 12 right, I used to be really fat and unwanted and I was also friends with the popular girls in school. You know how every popular girl will have an ugly friend so that all the guys can use that ugly friend to get information about her pretty friend? Well, I was the ugly girl. So anyway, ALL my friends have their boyfriends and naturally, I wanted a boyfriend too but in that state I was in, it was really impossible to find a boyfriend.

The only guy who was remotely interested in me was..well..non-existent wtf. The guy I had a huge crush on only wanted to snap my bra strap T_______T and my best guy friend liked my best girl friend so being the sad fat girl, it was only VERY logical for me to create an imaginary boyfriend for myself WTF I know this is the saddest/most embarrassing piece of info about me ever. Okay, that’s not the juicy part you know! Let me first tell you more about my darling wtf.

1. He was from the US wtf hahahah you know lah wanna imagine must imagine higher wtf. Simply a geeky chinese guy would not satisfy me just yet.

2. His name was Zachary which I can shorten and fondly call him “Zach” (from scale of 1 to 10 my humiliation is 148104 now wtf)

3. He has a friendster account and he left me a testimonial

proof.

WTF HAHAHHAA i even googled some american kid’s picture and pretend it’s Zach WTF HAHAHAHA OMG MALUNYA! Somemore his whole friendster account got no other information and I have no idea why is he from Australia =.= See he only has one friend and surprise surprise, it’s me wtf

4. I told all my friends that we met in a cinema omg wtf hahahahaha

So after I met Zach, my friends all said I became so much happier and joyous and said they were happy for me. Little did they know how my heart was bleeding inside wtf. Then one fine day, I got tired of pretending so I told my friends we broke up and they were so sad for me so I had to pretend to cry to appear more believable WTF WHY WAS I LIKE THIS!

Yeah that’s all lah the end how low you want me to stoop some more wtf.

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That aside,

Bored until crazy already wtf

It’s -12 celcius today T_________T

If it’s a single digit negative also damn happy already. 0 celcius also very very happy. If 5 celcius happy until can cry wtf

Hello everyone, I’m in a much better mood already! In my moments of despair, I miraculously watched 12 episodes of Why Why Love o.0 I know this show has the worst title ever but it’s damn nice okay I cried so much T______T And my Rainie Yang and Mike He *big wet eyes

Seriously how I do it again ah? 12 episodes in two days?! One episode is like 1 hour 15 minutes okay god I’m so good. As of now, I have time to blog cause episode 12 is stuck halfway HORROR HORROR so I’m gonna redownload it and hope for the best.

Hmm you know how in dramas, they always have stupid moments like when this guy is kissing this girl and this other girl who is not supposed to be there will somehow mysteriously appear right at that exact moment?! Or when this girl is helping some poor man and the guy will just so happen to walk past and see this and fall in love with the girl?? Seriously damn unrealistic lor! Like how when they turn on the tv/radio then right at that precise moment, they’ll show something that person shouldn’t see on the news etc.

When I was 13, I’d sweep the floor at home and I’d open my door damn wide, hoping that my crush will somehow appear and ter-see me sweeping and think I’m damn hardworking and fall in love with me WTF WHY AM I LIKE THIS DO I HAVE NO SHAME TELLING THIS! yeah but that’s true, that was the only hope that kept me going everyday wtf. I’d think to myself hmm, if my crush’s mother see me now, she’ll go tell her son how I’m such a good girl and he might like me later! Ooooh better clean harder wtf.

Sigh but unlike tv shows, that kinda thing almost never happened to me before. I guess a girl can only dream harder next time.

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Barry was showing me this ridiculous piece of news from home that got me so so so mad!! These kinda things have been happening for some time now and everytime I hear about it, I get so mad. It was about how this chinese guy passed away and his son tak pasal pasal go and tell the police that he actually converted to Muslim. Then the police went to his funeral or something and wanted to take his body to be buried in some muslim cemetery!

1. why the police got nothing better to do than going to people’s funerals and take their bodies ah!?!? Don’t they have snatch thieves to catch!? Rapists to castrate?! Huh? How can they go around telling women it’s their fault for carrying big bags or wearing sexy clothes when it’s their job to look for bad people! As if that’s not bad enough, now they wanna simply go dig up people’s graves!

2. omg seriously why people in this country very like to impose stupid laws one? Just because he apparently converted means they have the right to intrude people’s life is it? So they can’t sleep peacefully cause he’s not buried in muslim’s burial place is it? It’s none of their business in the first place, simply sticking their dirty noses into people’s affairs.

3. What’s with the law that once you converted into muslim, then you can’t un-convert? How can anyone even have the right to say which god you choose to believe in is wrong and once you believe in this god, you can never change your belief?? Maybe this God didn’t give me the B cup I asked for, or the world peace I wanted, so I decide to try another God, why the hell not??! If you’re allowed the right to buy what you like, marry whom you like, elect someone you trust as the president, decide your fate and join the army, then I don’t see why no one can have the right in changing their religion and beliefs.

I’m continuing this post in a password protected post since it can get rather nasty. I will talk about why we’re not allowed to question the supposedly ’sensitive issues’ and you can choose not to read it if you want.

p.s: i just ate ice cream in this -10 celcius weather just cause i like the waffle cone T____T I like the taste of very little ice cream and cone so I had to first put ice cream inside then use my tongue to scrape out most of the ice cream cause i don’t like it and my tongue froze T__T