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Queen Emo

February 19, 2008 Emo T_T Suet 34 Comments

Okay I know I’ve talked about this a million times now but I’m seriously very proud of this fact ok. Today, in -1 celcius, I walked out with only a tshirt, a pair of jeans and a jacket. I’m wearing what I will normally wear to the cinema/mall in Malaysia except that this is almost 20 degrees colder! Am I brave or am I super brave? wtf. So if I come back to Malaysia and keep complaining about the hot weather then it’s not my fault ok! You’ll probably see me in shorts and tank top everyday, even in cinemas and malls.

My bravery aside, I shall talk about my issue with money, again. Ya lah I’m sorry if this is the most important thing in my life ok. I mean, money is not THAT important until I will choose it over love etc but it’s important enough for me to choose it over my own happiness. One, I really hate it when people tell me how I should spend more cause there isn’t any point in saving all my money forever but what they don’t get is I’m not saving it till I die, I just don’t think I should spend it on stuff that isn’t that necessary lah.

The fact that I have money doesn’t mean I’m rich or I should just spend it what. Two, what I ABSOLUTELY hate is how people say I’m studying in the states = I am rich. I am so not ok! If I am then why would I struggle so much to get a scholarship? If I am do you think I’ll be as stingy as I am now? As if I like being stingy omg I obviously wish I can buy anything I want or travel to anywhere I want where got people like to be stingy one! As if I like hunting like crazy for clothes less than $10! If I can I wish I can just go into a shop and buy something without having to head straight to the sales section ok.

I really want to start paying my own tuition fees starting from next year and not ask from my parents instead ok. This is my own education, I don’t see why they should pay for it. I wish I can tell everyone to just please understand, I don’t like and I don’t want to be stingy, but I’m just thinking way ahead than I should. What if I don’t find a job after I graduate? Who’s gonna pay for my expenses while I hunt around for jobs? What if my first job only gives me enough money to eat? Where do I get the money to buy car/rent house/get married?

My two siblings can’t even go overseas cause my parents are already paying for mine, so I really really want to support them later ok. My dad has to work in a freaking far place and leave my family behind and only come back once in 4 months. All that just to pay for my college so how can I simply waste that money to spend on myself?! I’m damn emo now lah T____________T Please dont say I’m rich cause my dad is working in Dubai and cause I can afford to come to the states, I’m really not. I worked really hard to get this scholarship and I’m only paying what you pay in Malaysia too please please please don’t ever say I’m rich.

Shit lah fucking emo fucking emo fucking emo furcdkif fekeomowdmqfoqwor3.

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Do you realize that when I’m not emo I use a lot of wtfs, when I’m emo one wtf also don’t have but got a lot of OKs. I sound like I’m trying to convince everyone about my emo-ness so keep saying ok? ok? ok? wtf

Ok lah I’m not emo anymore, came to my senses already wtf. Actually sometimes my stingy-ness also melampau already one. I have so many examples!

1. I will always squeeze my sentences in one line and if I have one extra word to write I’ll NEVER ever write into the next line lor! One line must be filled with at least 6 words wtf. Also, I will never skip one line, EVER. Unless if I really have to like to separate notes taken on different days.

pictorial evidence:

See, die die must write all in one line even if I have to put ^ and write above it wtf.

2. To save my highlighter, I will only highlight absolutely important stuff and will highlight the bottom of the words only.

3. For ’special’ pens, that are pens above 80 sen ones like those cool 0.4mm Pilot G2 (RM3.80 or so) or whatever, I will only use them to write very important stuff like my name wtf. My most expensive pen which is like RM5 or what lah, the super fine ink type, is still with me after 5 years. And I only used 1/4 of it in the last 5 years! That’s the amount of ink used to write my name in exams/books for 5 years wtf.

I know I’m a freak wtf

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Happy/sad?

Today I achieved Nirvana.

After printing all my readings and after reading 2 chapters of 90 pages of the smallest print you’d have ever seen, I finally came to an important realization. I was so close to dropping the class and call it quits but that got me thinking. I really really like this class, Rise of China, which is about issues China is facing now. The lectures are interesting but the readings are pretty tough. We have to write a paper each week (albeit only 1 page) and a final paper later.

With my current very very heavy workload, it’s impossible to read everything and write a good paper every week. And that was when I achieved the state of absolute harmony, stability and joy. ohm. All these years, through primary school, through high school, through a level, all I ever cared about was getting good grades. I must always get at least 7 out of 10 As in each exam, always get top 3, always do this that but I totally missed out what’s so utterly important here. I always want/need/must get good grades but are grades really that important? (wah damn serious wtf like essay for English SPM on “do grades matter?”)

No they don’t. What I said in my 5 page essay in high school weren’t what I really meant cause I was still as kiasu as always even after writing that essay. But now, I can firmly tell you that I finally understand the meaning of learning. People here don’t care about grades at all. The only people who will ask you what your GPA is are the Chinese seriously. They are the only thick-faced hooligans going around campus demanding to know everyone’s gpa and at the same time, boast about their 4.0.

But I shall not be one of them anymore because I have achieved Nirvana wtf. I shall now take classes not cause I must get an A but cause I’m here to learn. ohm… I will try my best but if I don’t get great results, then who cares? right right?? sigh make me happy lah everyone wtf.

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I’m sad cause I have no money left T_________T After leaving aside some money to buy my flight home, some money to buy stuff for my family and close friends (everyone please don’t expect me to buy stuff back you think I’m on holiday is it must buy souvenirs wtf), some money to last me for the whole of next semester (cause I don’t wanna ask more money from my parents T_T), I officially have -$100 in my bank.

Some more I’m so stupid dunno why was I so kind the other day cause I told my mom to give all my angpow money to my siblings T____T RM270 gone T__T She asked me three times if I was sure cause she knows how important money is to me wtf but I said “of course I’m sure, give them lah since I love them so much” what got into me! Suddenly became such a good sister wtf

I also got fined by the stupid bank cause I used more than what I had in my account T___T fined $40 ok can buy 4 dresses omg I’m so sad. I wanted to sue them saying how can they allow me to use more in the first place when it was a debit card, not credit, but suing takes a lot of money so I gave up..

The only way to get more money is by working harder in the kitchen wtf but I don’t have time to work T____T I have at least 100 pages to read every week, 2 hours of french work everyday, french quizzes twice a week, a paper to write every week, one confucius book to read and a paper, and THREE freaking midterms coming up. I’m dead meat.

Listing these down makes me feel more nervous omg I have two papers due next 3 weeks and they both require so much research beforehand omg is this how college life is like omg i’m panicking like crazy i’ll go sleep now to calm down!!!!!!@$!%$!%!

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Seriously if there is one person who is more aunty than me it’s Shanshan wtf. She will ask me to sleep every night and will nag and nag until I really give up on life and go sleep wtf.

If I complain that I have a lot of work (which I will never do again), she sits there and makes sure I do all my work. If I start chatting or reading blogs, she’ll clear her throat loudly and ask me to do work. Is this a healthy relationship? I’m starting to have doubts wtf.

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Valentine’s posers

February 15, 2008 Pictures, Random Suet 32 Comments

Hello why not a lot of you wished my sister happy birthday ah?! People’s birthday come once a year only ok wtf

Anyway today is Valentine’s Day and all we did was eat fried rice wtf but even that made us sooo happy. Then Aud and Angie gave us gifts <3

Aud did a card for me =))

Angie got me chocolate!!!

Yes I agree, valentine’s is so over commercialized like any other major celebrations but it’s still really fun to celebrate it! Let’s see what my boyfriend and I did for the past 4 valentines..Actually, we only celebrated the first one and didn’t do much for the rest.

The first one was really sweet! He told me that we’re gonna go Pizza Uno for dinner (we went there every month for our first year cause that was where we met =) ) and then he brought me back to his house! He set up a table with candles in his garden and bought food from Pizza Uno so we didn’t have to rush our dinner in a packed restaurant =))))

But of course, that was only the initial plan.. which failed cause even before he set the table, even before he bought the food, I kinda forced him to tell me his plans wtf. I knew he had something up his sleeves so I said if he didn’t tell me then I won’t go out wtf why am I like this T__T Spoilt such a pleasant surprise to satisfy my curiosity.

Anyway we didn’t really do much after the first year’s valentine’s cause 1. it’s too expensive to celebrate everything. First there is the important yearly anniversary to celebrate, then there are birthdays and christmas and valentine’s and chinese new year and suet-lost-1kg day, then barry-got-all-As day, aiseh the list goes on! and 2. we celebrate everyday anyway =) 3. Also cause we’re in a long distance relationship so it’s harder to celebrate, sending flowers are sooo expensive and not worth it

Valentine’s hoohaa aside, I have a new roommate now! I’m currently staying with my friend, Shanshan, cause her dorm is so much closer to the academic buildings. Seriously we bond so well! She is super stingy like me and super indecisive like me!! Matchmade in heaven wtf

And she is sooo pretty! This picture doesn’t justify her beauty wtf see this

She’s the one on the left. Pretty right!! Barry said I have a crush on her cause I keep showing him her pics wtf and that he’s losing me to her and her boyfriend said the same thing cause she always tells him about me and she always brings me breakfast etc wtf

Yesterday we wanted to order Chinese cause it was raining and we didn’t want to walk out and we took 30 mins to decide if we should order or not wtf hahaha cause we are both so stingy!! Then when we finally decided, we ordered one dish so that we can share and split the cost! I told you I found my soulmate *big wet eyes

Then our fortune cookie said : fortune kept at home is not as good as money in use. DAMN ACCURATE OK!!! Even the fortune cookie asked us to spend more money omg! Aud’s fortune cookie said to her once that: what is the difference between a cloud and a sheep? Cloud has no legs wtf no wonder her fortune is always so shitty hahahahaha where got fortune cookie tell joke one hahahaha some more not even funny hahah

To end my boring Valentine’s, I camwhored wtf

Got injected today T____T

No make up so huge shades are the best remedy to that!! Ok I’m not trying to be perasan la wtf but Tim said more people will notice you if you have huge pair of shades on and how true that is!

Today I wore shades and I saw so many people checking me out wtf and those people are all girls ok! what do you expect la women’s college what. But still, the experiment was damn successful! Without shades even the workers cleaning the road also won’t look at me WTF

See these kinda sohai faces also don’t look that sohai with shades!!

AND behold everyone, I shall show you the most poser of all poser pictures ever wtf I swear you’ll feel like punching me later!

omg damn poser sorry you can pretend not to know me wtf

I know you feel like punching us all too but we are the backstreet boys ok cannot simply punch one wtf BSB wtf

The end of valentine’s day

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To you

February 13, 2008 Emo T_T Suet 15 Comments

Dear friend,

Last Sunday, you turned 20 something. No, it’s not cause I don’t remember exactly how old you are, but it’s because it doesn’t even matter at all. What matters more is the fact that you’ll be graduating this year and forevermore be apart from me.

After these few months, there won’t be any silly trips to Saujana to camwhore, trip to the beach, trip to Giant to work together, trip to your house to watch dramas together, trip to Tze’s house with you in the car, trip to the mall here, trip to your room almost everyday, trip to across the campus just cause I wanted to watch Macbeth which we almost fell asleep 10 mins into it and left as soon as there was an intermission, trip to further away across the campus for some flea market thing which I wanted to go so badly too but we left after 2 secs cause all they had were granny used panties wtf, trip to the only party I went to last year, trip to all that clubbing sessions (although only twice wtf)..

Dear best friend,

Do you know that you are the sole reason I’m still alive in this place? You were also the reason why I chose this college. Whoa, two so very important choices in my life; my college and my death wtf.

Sigh, I don’t know how things will be in months to come. Who else can I speak to about every single minute details of my life? (aside from your brother of course, you Ooi siblings!) Who else do I turn to when I feel so excited every time I see that cute lesbian (seriously wtf), or who do I go to with all that recent gossip I just heard? Who can I speak Msian accent with? Who will I camwhore with? Who will say “god must have spent a little more time on us” when I ask why are we so pretty and smart? Who can I be so absolutely shameless and honest with?

Dear sister,

Although it’s hard to tell who really should be the elder one instead, I really think that I do treat you as my sister. The elder sister I never had, the younger sister whom I will always protect.

Do you know how much we went through together? From enemies who never wanted to say hi to each other, from a humble enemy who called the other up to say sorry (the reason why we are friends today, perhaps?), from a stubborn and shy me who didn’t want to hang out with you, from watching Click and The Devil Wears Prada when your brother left, from acting like silly monkeys and ghosts (videos we will never show to the outside world wtf), from missing not one train, but THREE trains together (ah, the Great Trip to Singapore That Never Happened story), from finding two more members to join us in our club, from the long distance relationship we had when you were in Japan, from the great summer we had when you came back, from ALLLL that to who we are today, haven’t we been through a hell lot?