Sweat Betul

I have the biggest dilemma of all dilemmas. You see, I have a boyfriend of 3 years (and 2 months this coming Tues!) and we’re so happily in love..when we’re not arguing. Anyway the arguments are not the problem cause I like it when we argue. So the other day we ran out of things to talk about (yes finally, after so long wtf), so we discussed this topic in great depth.

“Is it really possible to stay and love one person..for the rest of your life?”

If we do end up getting married when I am say, 27, we would have been together for 10 years then. 10 years + forever = a very awfully long time, isn’t it? I know if you do love each other then a very awfully long time seems like bliss but can love really do that? Can love really make up for I dunno..boredom? It just seems kind of scary to me, to date someone for 10 years and then spend your whole life with him.

How does it feel to live all your life with one person, wishing you’d met more people instead? Will I then regret for the rest of my life? Barry said maybe we should date around first and go back to each other later but then what if one of us finds someone better and the other one doesn’t?!???

Sigh this is truly such a big dilemma, Thelma. I don’t know why so many people wrote to you telling you about how he likes this girl but he’s too shy yadda yadda when there is a much bigger dilemma than that (like mine). I wanted to write to Big Bro too but he usually only get stupid dilemmas like how this guy couldn’t stop wanking everywhere he goes (trust me when I say everywhere..when he sees a hot girl in a mall, he’ll wank in the toilet etc eww) so I think my problem is too serious for him to handle.

I know what are you going to say. You are going to tell me to stay with him forever right? Is your name really Thelma anyway?

Tell me everyone, what should I do! Actually this is such a stupid question with no answer wtf. I put this as my personal message on MSN and got a somewhat neutral response. Some people said yes they believe that it’s possible and some said no and asked me not to be stupid wtf. Oh well, we’ll see.

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For CNY, I didn’t do much but I was happy enough cause on Day 1, we had fried rice which was really good! On Day 2 we had something like sweet and sour chicken which was sooo good too! On Day 3 we had Kung Po chicken which was good too. Those are the most chinese thing we can get here sigh.

And on Day 3 of CNY, I webcam-ed with my friends back home!

All of them =DD I was so happy!

Cibai..showed me angpows T____T Jess’ mom gave me one through the webcam hahaha but Jess is gonna keep for me till May.

We got bored after a while so we rolling our eyes wtf.

Them gambling while I watch in envy wtf. Sighhhh but it’s ok I’m happy enough to see them and have them see me too. Such is the wonder of technology =)

I miss everyone back home!!! Please wait for me to come back!

I start this post with the biggest and longest crying emoticon ever in the history of time wtf

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I’m so sad today cause it’s Chinese New Year but I’m still stuck in this place. Here begins my first of many years of not celebrating CNY T__T

CNY is such a big part of my life. I, for one, strangely love to go visiting and go back to my hometown and all that jazz. (I know no one is surprised anymore cause I’m aunty like that wtf) I just absolutely love the sights and sounds of this whole festival. All my CNY celebrations had been somewhat similar and monotonous but I still love it. And I love the reunion dinner on the eve!

What us kids usually do is we’ll walk to this shop that illegally sells fireworks/sparkles/pop pop etc while our parents busy themselves with the cooking. We’ll miserably beg them for RM10, sometimes 20 and sometimes our very generous uncle will give us 100 so we can buy the huge box of fireworks!!!! We will then run and hop merrily to the shop and carefully pick our favorite explosives for the night.

Then, our moms will yell at us to go eat and we’ll go “alaaa wait lahhh” but as usual, I’ll be amongst the first who will sit on the dining table wtf. Thus begins the best dinner of the year where adults will all tend to talk at the same time and yet still understand perfectly what everyone said and kids will eat in front of the TV. Me? I sit at the table so I can get more food wtf. Pork, chicken, fish, vege, soup, more pork, roast duck omg *salivates. I miss that so much =(

After dinner, we’ll sit in the living room and start eating tidbits (my 2nd fav part of the day wtf). All types of nuts, cookies, PINEAPPLE TARTS, candies, KUEH KA PEK…..=((((( I’m so sad now I can cry wtf sigh last time when I was young I used to help my grandma make kueh ka pek ok I was the person who folds them in the end!!! anyway after eating tidbits and chit-chatting, we’ll all go outside and play fireworks!!!!!!!! woooot!!! I love the sparkles they’re so pretty =D Then the guys will light up those huge boxes of fireworks =D

The end of the first of many celebrations. The next day, we’ll all wake up extra early and get angpows from our parents =DDD but I usually get RM50 only wtf nevermind lah CNY is not all about money ok! *lies to self wtf. Then, we’ll go around collecting angpows from all our relatives and we’ll eat more more more and chat more and gamble! This, times 100, is how I usually celebrate my CNY. Extremely simple but it used to make me soooo happy!

My angpow money usually accumulates to around RM100-150 only and I always thought that that’s a huge amount but when I found out that some people actually get up to a 1000, I almost died of shock wtf. Sigh I’m hoping that when I go back 4 years later, relatives will give me 4 times of what they usually do..haih wishful thinking.

I usually don’t buy a lot of new clothes for CNY, maybe one or two tops and I’ll wear my cousin’s second hand clothes wtf why do I sound so poor like a peasant wtf but I don’t see the point of getting more new clothes when I’ve already been buying new clothes all year round anyway. My grandma used to make all my new clothes until I was 13 then she told me she couldn’t make them anymore cause I was getting too big =( . Then my mom had to force me to buy new clothes wtf cause I kept wanting to wear my cousin’s although got holes already one wtf sigh I guess my stingy-ness is innate one.

Ok lah don’t wanna talk about CNY anymore makes me feel so down =( Let me go eat dinner and feel all better *forced smile

Happy Chinese New Year!

p.s: i’m back to 48kg whoopdeedoo!

 This is an advertorial wtf

Great it’s that time of the month again. If you know me when I was in Form 5, I’m sure you know how much I hated period. I hated it so much that I threatened my ovaries to stop producing eggs or else I’ll surgically remove them from my body. I also hated it so much that I wrote seriously emo entries about how I rather die than be a woman. Yes, now you can tell how much I hated my period T__T

The cramp is one thing, but the discomfort is another. I used to skip school cause of my cramps (yes it WAS that bad ok), but another main reason why I hate to walk out of my house is I hate to change my pad when I’m outside, especially in school! Grr hate hate hate.

Anywayyy, I’ve been using Kotex since I was maybe 15, when I found out that their packaging is WAYYY cooler than other products. Do you know what I’m talking about? There the cartoonish looking girls!

And then they had this flower flower thing as their cover also. How cool is that?? (ok shaddap I was 15) (ok actually truth is I still buy Kotex for that very same reason wtf)

Kotex is now launching their new product called Soft and Smooth Ultrathin Wing and it absorbs two times faster!

It has a bi-fluid blue layer so woot! now I don’t have to wait for my pad to work its wonder while discretely tugging at it! You know that feeling of wetness and you always have to move your pad around cause it’s super uncomfortable?! Yuck I hate hate hate hate it!

Imagine tugging at it while walking then people see how! Seriously damn embarrassing right? But which one should I choose, to die of embarrassment or to feel a tad more comfortable?? Now with this pad that absorbs two times faster, there won’t be that feeling of wetness=no more tugging=no more dying of embarrassment!

Wah I seriously sound like TV commercial wtf haha

Ok ehem, continue. As the name suggests, this pad is also ultrathin so you don’t have to worry about the pad being visible!

Super thin right like paper only!!

HAHAHAHAH you know sometimes how a pad is so bulky that it makes you look like you have a talala? A ding ding dong? God those terms make me crack! hahahaha wtf. Yeah so anyway I always wear bulky pads cause I want them to absorb more and faster and always risk looking like I have a talala. Schlong. Whatever you want to call that male organ of copulation lah. So yay now no more schlong for me!

Not only that, a thick pad made things so terribly inconvenient last time when I used to play basketball every day. Sigh back in those good ol’ days when I used to be so fit =( Although the only exercise I get each day now is..erm..walk up the stairs wtf, but for you perople who still play sports (yeah yeah good for you *sour wtf) a thinner pad will always be better!

Last note: If you wanna know, they also have that softouch cover with embossed floral designs which I love so much. Makes me feel really happy even though reaching for a pad is the saddest thing to do. But then again, not getting your period when you want it to come is a sadder thing lah haha.

Wah I can write damn a lot just on pads hor I wonder why I can’t write as much for my assignments .

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There you go, my first advertorial *big wet eyes..and it’s about pad wtf. So what! Pads are a fact of life too ok! And I only did it cause I do use Kotex and I do like it and I do think bulky pads make me look like I have a dick wtf.

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What I did since I came here which I’m really proud of:

1. Bathe everyday. Seriously I really thought it’ll be too cold to bathe here but because of the hot shower, I ended up bathing everyday cause hot showers are THE SHIZNIT.

2. Only put on 1/2kg so far (it fluctuates) I’m so proud!!!!!!!111 people say they usually put on more than 5 kg haha but that’s not my goal, my goal is to lose more weight before I go back so no one can say I’m fatter already >=(

3. Remain sane and get good grades. Hallelujah wtf please let me remain sane and get good grades this semester too. Normally, people take 16 credits a semester but I’m taking 19 this time T____T I didn’t have a choice huhu lazy wanna explain why.

Ya allah ah ne ne roommate listening to techno songs and tamil songs wtf. Aud thinks she’s secretly a shuffler in disguise wtf. When I’m brave enough, I’ll ask her if she’s a DJ wtf. Tamil songs….*faints.

p.s: seriously I REFUSE TO accept the fact that chinese new year is the day after tomorrow and I’m not there to celebrate it. I still can’t believe it. It’ll be the saddest day of my life =(

Attention all Malaysians in the US, there’ll be a forum coming up in Boston for all Msians so if you are interested, please tell me so I can forward you the email ok! I think I’m going since it’s only 2 hours from here, so hopefully I’ll see all of you there =D

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Classes I’m taking this semester:

-French..again T____T

-Macroeconomics

-Game Theory (econ class)

-Intro to Chinese Civilization

-Rise of China

-Renaissance Dance

I know I’m taking wayyy too many classes T_____T Let me see if I can survive this semester or not ok. I know renaissance dance wtf we will learn how Shakespeare danced wtf. Aud and Angie are taking that class which is why I took it since it’ll be my last class with them, forever T_________T

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OK LET ME SHOW EVERYONE SOMETHING!!!!!!

You see this girl? Please remember her face ok wtf and let me show you what make up and photoshop can do to someone with this face.

After adding bigger lens and eyelid glue. I don’t believe the one on the right is her lah! The lips so different right?? Ok wait, there are more!

After adding fake lashes and mascara and foundation and very photoshopped.

After adding eyeliner and letting her hair down. Omg it’s so photoshopped though, look at the huge eyes! and the face shape is completely different!

Terribly photoshopped but damn pretty right!

Seriously can anyone believe this??????

From this

to this

Damn damn pretty right!?!?!?!? The before pictures damn kao ugly until dunno what, I see more than a few times then feel like vomiting wtf. Seriously very hard to believe leh! Wait, there are more transformations! But these are more realistic.

Before

After

Oklah looks quite real and believable.

Her eyes so nice with make up right! (hahahah why must wear shower cap hahaha so that she’ll look uglier in the before pic wtf)

Not bad right!

There are more but the rest are more photoshopped so those don’t count. Ok, let me show you MY before and after pictures but you’ve probably seen this before since I always post makeup-less pictures of myself anyway.

Completely without makeup and angle. Must take from front one since it’ll be uglier that way wtf

With fake lashes, eyeliner, and eyeshadow. I don’t think I got put foundation and all that cause I’m far too stingy to buy face makeup remover wtf. I only have the eyes one so I always try not to put foundation cause apparently it’s not advisable to use the makeup remover for eyes on your face?

With more makeup. I did edit the contrast and brightness for this picture though cause the original was way too dark but that’s all. Oklah mine not that much difference but let me put my ugliest of all ugly pictures wtf.

Before

(i’m the fattest one lah wtf, all pictures are taken when I was 12/13)

Drastic leh wtf

So people, be brave and put up your before and after pictures too! I know you can do it *supportive

If you don’t have a blog or are too shy, then email me ok I wanna see them! If you did take up the challenge and posted yours on your blog, leave me your link so we can all go see together =D Consider this a tag wtf. I hereby tag…all the women wtf.