Sweat Betul

yay finally got an A after weeks of playing this! Free food here I come <3

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I hate myself T_____T

1. cause I damn stupid lah stupid until dunno what! Upon my grand arrival wtf, I teman-ed my mom to pasar malam since I haven’t been there for ages and I was craving for pasar malam food. God, I love love LOVE pasar malam cause everything is so cheapppp! Pearl tea was only RM2.50 omg and fried carrot cake was RM3.50 *salivates to death

Anyway the point is! I was so happy to see pirated dvds wtf so I immediately bugged my mom to let me buy some AND GUESS WHAT!!!!!!!!!

WHAT IS THIS YOU TELL ME! WHAT THE HELL AM I WATCHING T____________T

I bought 21 cause my friend’s friend is acting in it and the stupid dvd guy lied to me T_T he said it’s very clear one but he lied T_T I have no faith in humanity anymore T_T I cannot trust a single guy on earth anymore how could they do this to me T_T I was but a lost soul who sincerely just wants to watch her friend’s friend in a movie so she can go brag about it to her friends but he lied to me!

So how can I look at guys in the eye and believe what they tell me anymore seriously! GRR. Stupid dvd seller tonight I shall dream of you buried in a pile of very bad quality dvds until you suffocate and I shall not lift a finger to help you! See lah dare to lie to this poor soul some more or not!

2. I cut my hair T____T

My old hair in its glory

Haih damn long and nice right!

Ladies and gents, presenting to you…my new hair!

Sorry very bright but the room was too dark..

Haiya not fun one. I put this as my display pic in MSN and 9 out of 10 people knew it was fake =( They said they know me too well and I always lie one boohoo next time if I got some fatal disease then no one will believe me anymore. The girl who cried wolf hahaha.

Real hair. (sorry color of picture a bit off, had to adjust the brightness cause too dark) I just redyed and trimmed my hair a little. I love the color but don’t like how she cut it straight across though =S It’s ok, hair can grow one! Can’t really see the color here..it’s more like those pictures of me in Ulu Yam one. Haihhh I miss my long hair =( stupid actually my hair still very long lah but I miss it being long enough to touch my belly button wtf.

Yeah so why am I angry with myself is cause I didn’t have the guts to actually cut it short. I know I’ll look ok with short hair and I really wanna try something different (and dumbo barry said he wants me to cut my hair short so he feels like he’s dating another girl so very exciting wtf but i said cannot lah later no one can differentiate who is suet who is barry how wtf cause we look alike and if I cut short confirm like his hairstyle also one) BUT I feel damn insecure! My shoulder/chest/ribcage area damn big one ok (not fat la big bones ok T__T) so I’ll feel damn insecure if I don’t have my long hair to cover that area.

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OH! yesterday I went to pyramid and was so shocked!!!1

1. the parking damn COOL WEI COOL COOOLCOOLLLLLCLC!!! They have that sensor in the parking and if a car parks in the parking lot, the light will turn red so you don’t have to go round and round looking for parking spots but can spot the light from far! (if the space is empty, the light turns green) WOI DAMN EFFICIENT WEI! I kept gushing about how great that invention is to my friends until they ignored me T_T I even wanted to go to the information counter to give the pyramid people a pat in the back and say good job to them wtf.

They said this young guy invented it one! Does anyone know who he is? I need to give him a pat in the back and say good job to him la!

2. They have sooo many shops! I don’t even need to go One U or MidValley anymore yayyy save petrol!

I’m so proud of pyramid! It’s subang kids’ territory ok! We always go there since young to either go ice-skating or watch movie one wtf.

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Helped my sister with her cupcakes the other day! She loves to bake and so she went to some baking class and learnt how to make cupcakes! She’s trying to make a business out of it cause she said other cupcakes places overcharge people so she wanna sell cheaper to her friends.

They were for some kid’s party one hence the bright colors. Considering that she only went to one class so far and I did not have any baking/decorating skills at all, those cupcakes turn up pretty decent looking!

Ok the end babai

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OMG OMG OMG MY GRADES ARE OUT I’M TOO SCARED TO CHECK OMG HOW (thanks sharon)

Haahhaha the other day when I was flying back, I met this guy who sat two seats away from me in the plane. I was trying to put my bag into the overhead cabin and asked him for help but he couldn’t find space for me so you know what he said?

“Life sucks”

He said life sucks cause he couldn’t find space to put my bag for me.

Well he was wrong cause you know what really sucks, guy who sat two seats away? What really sucks is when you are sitting at home at 2.22 in the morning 10 days into your first year summer holiday thinking about your immediate future. You’re sitting at home wondering if you really should look for an internship just to be on par with everyone else, wondering if you accidentally skip doing an internship this year, will it affect your job prospects next time, wondering if investment banks will even look at your lousy resume now when you should have sent it long ago, wondering if you even want to work in banks or not, wondering if that is really the kind of life you want to have next time, wondering what kinda life you want anyway, wondering why can’t things be less competitive, less harsh and less stressful.

It’s 2.22am now and I’m sitting at the exact spot I was a year ago. A year ago, I was a girl full of hope who couldn’t wait to start college. A year later, I am still a girl full of hope, maybe a little less but still rather full nevertheless, but not eager to go anywhere. not eager to go on with life, not eager to continue studying, not eager to start working, and maybe slightly too eager to start a family. I feel like I have no drive anymore, no ambition, no purpose, no nothing. In high school, my purpose was just to do really well in SPM. Later, my purpose was to get into an American college and now? I don’t even know anymore.

Laa dee dum i hope this is just some midlife crisis or something. I AM gonna wake up tomorrow knowing what I should do right? I am gonna wake up and feel like life is full of purpose again right? If I keep telling myself that way, maybe I will. I am gonna wake up with so much drive it will knock my socks off and I am gonna wake up feeling like a bright-eyed girl who just can’t wait to embark into a journey and life full of meaning again.

I am gonna wake up with so much drive it will knock my socks off and I am gonna wake up feeling like a bright-eyed girl who just can’t wait to embark into a journey and life full of meaning again. I am gonna wake up with so much drive it will knock my socks off and I am gonna wake up feeling like a bright-eyed girl who just can’t wait to embark into a journey and life full of meaning again. I am gonna wake up with so much drive it will knock my socks off and I am gonna wake up feeling like a bright-eyed girl who just can’t wait to embark into a journey and life full of meaning again. I am gonna wake up with so much drive it will knock my socks off and I am gonna wake up feeling like a bright-eyed girl who just can’t wait to embark into a journey and life full of meaning again..

Being very adventurous people, we went jungle trekking the other day in Ulu Yam! Back in those days, I used to go camping at least twice or three times a year (I was a scout) and last I counted, I went camping for around 14 times! My first time was when I was 10 and I came back with red sores all over cause was bitten by leeches. My mom had to prepare hot water with dettol for me to soak in T_T some more got bitten near my petpet wtf but not pain one la a lot of blood only.

Anywayyy, I didn’t get bitten this time around cause we didn’t hike that much, drove most of the way.

**SUPER A LOT OF PICTURES AHEAD**

#1 Driving in

#2 We were all wearing our basketball jersey pants cause those are the only shorts we have that are above the knee. scared that if we wear too short shorts then the jungle god gets mad at us wtf

#3 With daniel who wore our school tshirt which i was supposed to wear too but forgot.

#4 Emo pic with clem wtf look at the sun rays!

#5 Daniel took this photo of me taking a photo. posting this up despite the erm, well-endowed arm wtf cause can see the rays! damn nice

#6 Emo-ing again wtf

#7 Daniel, Heng, me, Jess and Shawn at the river! (prior to jess stamping her foot into the water)

#8 Jess stamping her foot into the water wtf

#9 Water fight!

#10 Daniel’s fort wtf

#11 The river

#12 Probably talking nonsense

#13 Shawn’s sister, Yen with Jess and Esther in the background

#14 Picnicking! See guys? I told you we so need the mat but everyone said haiya no need one! Lucky I brought anyway

#15 Lepaking. Chillaxing wtf

#16 Group pic. I so love dslr *big wet eyes

#17 Damn clear!

#18 After bathing/playing/chillaxing in the river, we drove to the lakeside for pictures.

#19 =D

#20 Daniel, me, Jon, Esther, Sarah and Jess

#21. 6 5 4 3 2 1 wtf

#22 Random shot in black and white

#23 Everyone was baffled by clem’s beauty wtf

#24 Shawn got his period wtf hahahah two leeches were caught there while happily sucking his blood and were squashed by his thunder thighs and received a tragic death wtf hahaha

#25 More group pic

#26 Esther Shawn and Jess jumping. not scared fall into the lake ah tsk tsk

#27 The guys

#28 camwhoring before we leave. look! andy and jon were blurred in the background *amazed at own skills wtf

We went home, showered etc and went shabu-shabu for dinner!

#29 Shabu2x in Puchong

#30 The pork slices which everyone loved. Jess ate SEVEN plates of this, Shawn ate TWELVE while I ate one wtf seriously I can’t afford to throw all my gym sessions away for this, even if I paid for it T___T (it was a buffet japanese steamboat, we can take as much as we want)

Haih my heart ached in agony and indecisiveness every few minutes wtf cause I didn’t know what I should do! I already paid so much but I can’t eat a lot because 1. I get full easily and 2. I put on weight easily T___T haih money or weight?!? woe is definitely me.

It was such a fun day yesterday! I love being home =)

p.s: Does anyone know where I should intern at? Most banks only take 2nd year students and I’m only in my 1st year. I’m majoring in Economics so I want something that is related to my major so I can judge and see if I really wanna major in Econ. Oh and is it too late to apply now? I know I should have started earlier =S

Sigh why are companies getting so innovative these days? I was bloghopping when I saw this fun game in someone’s site and I spent the whole night playing it yesterday =.=

The said game goes like this,

you just have to put that bait thingy in front of the fish and when it bites it, just pull it up to catch the fish!

But becareful of that eel thingy cause you’ll get shocked one! The graphic is pretty good right? The hand looks so real and when you get shocked, can see all your bones also haha

My highest score so far =( The highest score of the day is not that far off from mine la..45,000 only one extra 0 only wtf

Damn fun right! I kept playing and playing cause I really wanna beat that highest score guy but I couldn’t! I really don’t know how he did it. It’s either he’s real good at fishing in real life, or..i’m just really bad haha.

Hmm do you think if I tell them that my mom uses their bank (Hong Leong Bank), they’ll let me win ah? First price is a psp ok don’t play play! The contest ends on july 31st so I think if I practice harder from now on, I can still stand a chance leh..

Yeah so speaking of hong leong, it started in 1905 but has long since became one of the most recognized local banks in malaysia. How I know this? Cause I’ve been doing quite some research about it since I’m planning to intern in banks (but chances are I won’t get the internship since I’m just a lowly first year college student =( )

Anyway, why my mom likes Hong Leong Bank is cause they have this online banking system as well where you can settle all your bills online, how easy! It’s easier for her since she doesn’t have to drive all the way to the bank now but not easier for me cause I have to do everything for her! grr. but surprisingly online banking is sooo easy, even much easier than playing this fishing game.

I have to get higher score leh cause Nuffnang, Hong Leong Online and Buena Vista are organizing an event in conjunction with the movie Made of Honour (Patrick Dempsey *swoons) and if you’re a nuffnanger and you get a pretty high score for FlipFlop Flippy game (not 4500), you can win a dinner for two in JW Marriott!!!!! 8 course dinner ok! I want i want i want cause it’s free! And you all know my motto right. Some more I have a dress I can wear since the dress code is formal and my dress is sooo formal you don’t even know it ok! Except that I always wear the same old dress where ever I go..

ok don’t wanna waste my time blogging I need to get 45,000! or 450,000 then confirm can win already! both psp and the dinner mmm.

Why do people judge so easily? I know how I write here is how I want to be portrayed and I haven’t regretted how I’ve been portraying myself cause I think I’ve been the real-est as I can be. Just because I complained a few times about the weather here doesn’t mean I hate malaysia omg if I do really hate msia why would I spend thousands just to come back?

I’m so patriotic you don’t even know it ok and if I have a choice, and if malaysia had given me a chance, I would never ever choose to leave. I take pride in my ability to speak malay as fluent as a malay woman herself and I take pride in knowing what’s happening politically and economically. I also love this country to bits and I hope to come back to contribute once I’m done with college. so just because I may not like the weather now which is clearly much worse than it had been before, and just because forever21 happens to fking rip people off don’t mean I’m a brat who whines 24/7.

I’m not getting worked up over that one comment lah I’m just trying to tell people who think I’m one of those ungrateful msians who goes overseas for a few months and comes back speaking in some foreign accent and proclaims how msia is such a bad country blabla that i’m not like that ok.

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Sigh I was wrong when I said I already beat my jetlag cause I kept feeling sleepy around 10pm everyday despite having around 9 hours of good sleep the night before. Then today, I fell sick T_________T I don’t know what to blame it on. Forcing myself to get used to the time by pretending I’m not sleepy when I am, or eating random mamak food, or the weather, or the boredom, or..?

Grr head’s spinning and body’s aching. Some more I’m going down to nuffnang’s office tomorrow so let’s just hope I don’t faint in the train or something. Have to face the terror that is KL again like the good ol’ days of waiting for the slow ktm, getting sandwiched while clutching onto my laptop bag tightly, switching to lrt in kl sentral, crossing the super busy street and finally to the office. Frankly my dear, I don’t really look forward to that at all. I wish I can just type in ’nuffnang office’ into google maps and it’ll just transport me right there sigh.

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disallowing comments because i know what is everyone gonna say anyway. oh, poll.