I iz sked
September 1, 2008 1:29 pm Emo T_T Suet, Sad SuetI am so scared! A million and one things are running through my head now and I can’t seem to stop them (cause they’re running! hahaha wtf). So worried that I won’t be strong enough to lug my huge luggage from the airport to the bus station after 35 hours of flying, and not fast enough to catch the next bus and end up going back to my college late and wouldn’t have enough time to carry 14 boxes back from the storage room and will be too jetlagged to attend classes the next day!
Lesson number 1. Never ever try to save money ever again. I tried to get the cheapest flight and ended up having to fly to Boston and now I have to take two buses from there to get back to college! Bah!
Lesson number 2. Always fly back earlier! I’ll only reach the day before class starts cause I totally forgot about all that moving back my stuff from storage and jetlag and I thought I wanted to spend more time at home. Look how stressful it is now =(
I am also very scared cause I don’t know if I will ever find people who are like me and end up not having friends T__T I had Aud and Angie and Shanshan and Mild before this so I didn’t really bother making friends (and I cannot get along well with americans at all!) but now..I’ll be all alone T__T
Fuck lah I knew I should have pretended to like those people from China at least I won’t be so lonely now wtf..but they are like..a complete different breed ok =( and they always speak chinese not like malaysian chinese but like those ching chong ma chinese wtf.
Although I thought my chinese is quite good, I couldn’t even converse with them at all. Besides, I don’t want to always speak chinese cause later the americans think we’re talking about them how!
I am so scared to go back to my room alone too =( I don’t like looking around to find noone in the room but me and if I find something funny on youtube or something then I got noone to show it to =((( What if I go mad! What if I start talking to myself or create an imaginary friend for myself!!!
Hmm if I do create an imaginary friend I want to name him Zach, short for Zachary, which also happens to be the name of my imaginary boyfriend wtf. And we can do all sorts of fun things best friends so, like go shopping in Forever 21 and cook together and talk about our isi hati wtf
HOW LA WEI why was I so anti-social! See la lazy to make friends some more! Haih I feel sooo lazy when it comes to making small talks with people you have zero things in common with lor!
It’s 2am now and I have to wake up around 6.30 since my flight is at 9.30am but I can’t sleep! Cause I’m so worried and stressed and scared!
What if I don’t find anyone I can hang out with! Then I have to be one of those losers who eat alone everyday?? Or have to tapau food back to my room and eat while watching drama (actually I was already like this last time omg why am I such a loser T_T eh not everytime la sometimes only!)
Anyway I’m gonna write a looooong post since I can’t sleep cause heart filled with anxiety wtf. What have I done this summer..well I think this is a really good summer cause I felt like I did so many things!
1. Went to the gym religiously for a month! I went to the gym around 4 times a week for a month ok cause wanna make the most out of my money which was only rm15 la wtf. Anyway I think I didn’t get slimmer or anything but I sure felt a lot more confident about my body. Go to gym, people!
2. Ate so much! Wah I’m surprised I didn’t gain much weight lor! I think…cause I haven’t weighed myself in ages
3. Attended so many events! I’m going to miss all that nuffnang events T____T free movies, free food, free gifts
4. Completed a pretty good internship! Although I always had nothing to do one wtf everyday will either blog or read blogs or go icanhascheezburger wtf
5. Went to so many places! Redang and Penang only actually but felt like a lot
6. Got so much closer to all my friends. Sigh can I ship everyone back to US with me =(
7. Spent every. single. day. with my boyfriend. I’ve never felt happier =D
My life is so perfect in Malaysia so why did I choose to leave all that behind and go back to the gloomiest and loneliest place in the world! What if I sacrifice my perfect life for a good education and end up being a housewife wtf
Eh my entry so long you all got read every word or not! I write every word with so much tender loving care, better read everything ok! What if my plane crash wtf (CHOI TAI KA LAI SI) then you’ll never read anything I write again =(
ok if you read until here means you got read everything so I shall reveal one secret about me! Last time when I was 6, I got caned by my grandma cause I didn’t wear underwear to school WTF cause you know when you’re young you don’t wear panties one then suddenly have to wear then very uncomfortable ma! Then my grandma found out and asked me “lu boh cheng teh ko ah?? you didn’t wear panties ar WTF” then she caned me damn pain T_T
I think I better get some sleep. Don’t want to leave tomorrow T___T
Don’t be deceived by my happy face and happy pimple, actually very sad one
Bye!
Bye!
Byeeee!
ByEeeEEeeee!
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Baz :
Date: September 1, 2008 @ 1:42 pm
hahahaha actually very sad face and pimple wtf
i teman you on the phone every single moment ok!! have to top-up my net10 edi wtf
fly safe love!
linsey :
Date: September 1, 2008 @ 1:46 pm
HARLO! you be safe =D
and yes, i haven’t sleep yets!!
andrew :
Date: September 1, 2008 @ 4:37 pm
haha…can’t believe i actually read every word of this entry. u’re hilarious!
anyway, have a safe journey and dont worry too much! u’ll be fine..
sibs :
Date: September 1, 2008 @ 4:51 pm
aww suet! you’ll be fine! the americans arent THAT bad! some of them are actually really, really nice and very funny. just go sit next to one and say hi or something, it’ll work out!
have a good trip back!
Toc :
Date: September 1, 2008 @ 4:51 pm
Same as you, but I’m in Texas
Which is the most deserted place on earth!!! besides sahara k..
Good luck for your new semester!!
And I read every single word.
Angie :
Date: September 1, 2008 @ 5:06 pm
I read every single word my love T____T Don’t worry you will be fine T___________T actually im damn worried for u wtf .. sigh msg me when u arrive ok tell me howz everything T________T at least now our time zone will be the same n we can talk online T_________T
CraSH :
Date: September 1, 2008 @ 6:02 pm
i read the whole thing and we all love you… i am sure you will be fine!! just say hi to your neighbors and your classmates, i am sure you will meet some decent americans…
hmm.. i think the moral of the story is get to know as many people as possible because you never know you will need some help or “teman”.. be strong! oh! not to forget, have a safe trip…
mg :
Date: September 1, 2008 @ 6:14 pm
i know exactly how u feel about mixing around. i dun mix much other than my group of malaysian/singaporean friends too!! it’s just kinda weird to talk to them (ang moh) cos really got no topic at times/different wavelength, sigh.
anyway, all the best! and i read the whole entry too. =)
nic :
Date: September 1, 2008 @ 8:20 pm
haha tat’s one funny post! u have a fierce grandma…
pinkpau :
Date: September 1, 2008 @ 8:20 pm
nvm liewsuetli u come to NY and be with me T____T im not scared of ghosts wan so i will take care of you and share my maggi with you T____T
Patricia :
Date: September 1, 2008 @ 8:31 pm
ooooh this post cracked me up! bon voyage! take care!!!
anonymous :
Date: September 1, 2008 @ 8:38 pm
i read ur older post, ur anniversary is on 12/12 rite? y not u n barry get married or engaged on 12/12/12 hahaha
KY :
Date: September 1, 2008 @ 9:39 pm
why is your imaginary bf has a gay name!?
Kylie L :
Date: September 1, 2008 @ 11:14 pm
kesian haih..
Ping Ping :
Date: September 1, 2008 @ 11:51 pm
I read till ur grandma canned u cuz u diden wear underwear, so i read all…with tender loving care also wtf…
anyway, i was 6 too when I shouted to my mum saying MUMMY, BOH CHENG TEH KOH and pull up my skirt wtf. In front of a neighbour. Luckily she is a lady la. Mum was talking to her. Mum was so embarrassed and I can’t even remember that lady now. =))
real_cranium :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 12:37 am
not like malaysian chinese but like those ching chong ma chinese wtf.
and cook together and talk about our isi hati wtf
XD))))
better read everything ok! What if my plane crash wtf (CHOI TAI KA LAI SI)
XD)))) i swear i read wan.
XD))))
Ahmike.net :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 1:37 am
hey sista suet, dont think too much la, u r so socialable man.. take care always
holeymoo :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 1:37 am
haha
ur blog’s so funny.i’m studying abroad currently and reading it makes my day.
haiyo.dont worry la.i guess.=.=’
i mean, i guess u just have to make friends with those angmohs=)
hey its true.they’re rly quite nice n funny wan..
ps: i was afraid of ghosts in my 1st yr too.i slept with the lights on.hahah.my friends even bought me a night light
Bel :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 1:50 am
what makes u think people dont read ur posts properly lah. haha i wonder where u get ur humor from. i’m the type to say a joke and nobody laughs at it. sad case.
ps I never wore undies to sleep till i was 12. LOL
sweatlee (in HK!) :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 1:56 am
baz, hah so fast have to top uo again ah??
linsey, helo!! u goes sleeps now!
andrew, haha yays! thanks =)
sibs, yeah but i think i can get along better wiht guys =( and thanks!
toc, ya i heard it’s boring there! heh thanks, for reading =)
angie, hello T________T ya we can talk more maybe can go visit also..*hopeful
crash, thanks!!!
mg, yeah sigh but i think i’ll try harder this year!
nic, ya she very fierce one! huhu
pinkpau, huuhuh ny still like 5 hrs away by bus T___T
pat, haha thanks!!
anon, ya we thought of it before!! but i’ll only be 24 then, abit too young still!
ky, eh i thought zach is such a nice name ok!!!!!!! last time la wtf
kylie, ya =(
ping, hahahha why u also like tht last time! summore go show ur pet pet to the world wtf
real, hahaha thanks! for reading.
ahmike, how u know im sociable wei!
holey, thanks u make me happy with ur nice comment =) why 2nd yr then not scared edi!
bel, my humor ahh maybe i’m born with it ala maybelline wtf. i didnt know ppl will really read the whole post ma!
Jay See :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 1:57 am
haha, i’m not very sociable either. imaginary friend sounds cool =p
safe journey ya!!
Michael :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 2:13 am
buh bye and help me say hi to your imaginary friend!
Simon Seow :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 3:13 am
Yeah. Go to NY and find Su Ann. It will sure be fun to read both of your blogs then.
jessieloi :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 4:48 am
SUET I MISS YOU ALREADY!
I MISSED EVERYONE THE MINUTE I LEFT YOU GUYS AFTER THE YUMCHA SESSION wtf.
Take care darling! Don’t worry about ghosts. I promise not to tell you about the rumours about abnormal creatures that supposedly exist here.
Pearly :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 5:19 am
Awwww…… miss Suet in Malaysia ~ Look forward Suet in US !! Take care ya =)
val :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 5:35 am
haha ya those china people always roll their tongue, impossible to understand them!
anyway, have a safe flight!!
take care
steph :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 5:45 am
zzz and i didnt get to meet you this summer again! nevermind, have a safe flight back to US! and u stop worrying so much la, u know in the end u’ll always end up fine! i know exactly how u feel but no worries, ur place shud be better than mine in UK! damn depressing.
oh ya most importantly be urself there, u’ll be happier that way and once u find about 2-3 good friends thats enough already :). dont hv to worry! im sure u will find.
p/s: dont drink too much there! :D. all the best to you, suet!
sara :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 5:53 am
i’m just one of your readers but i’m over in the UK, and am somewhat similar to you T__T I’m lazy to make friends and i take it for granted when the ppl i’m close to are away. hahah yea sometimes i eat alone, so sad
bahh!! But that’s my own fault la i guess. Anyways, there’s much for you to look forward to i should think. can go NYC and all that. But you’ll be fine!! Have fun 
michellesy :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 6:31 am
eh, of course i got read your post lah wtf. you write, i read, that’s the deal wtf wtf.
and why you say things like this: “What if my plane crash wtf (CHOI TAI KA LAI SI) then you’ll never read anything I write again”
tai ka lai si times 10000000 ok wtf!!!
i can understand how stressful it is loh - i mean not just the flight and getting back there in time and packing/ unpacking (in itself one of the most stressful things ever!), but also losing your close circle of friends. and shanshan being unwell too T______T
*hugs*
clem :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 7:41 am
Qu’est-ce que tu en penses? wtf
i’m sure you can find new friends again wan.. if you’re an anti-social then i must be a caveman?
vivian :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 8:45 am
take care always!
Agnes :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 8:46 am
awww u’ll be alrite! you can find good friends in no time xD maybe not as great as aud, angie and others xD…
Ren :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 8:55 am
that is a real long flight…..
some more need to take bus…
hmm bet no chance to meet u when i having a NY tour next week =/
Keong :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 9:08 am
enjoy as much as possible while u r still in d uni. After you come out to work, u want to go back to uni pulak.
didi :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 9:34 am
aww don’t worry your little head too much. No matter what you will meet new friends when you go back to college, as who wouldn’t want to hang out with a sweet girl as you
Yea, I know what you mean about those Chinese groupies. But it fun to know that you understand them talking if they are talking supposely in secret in chinese ^^
Just get the essential stuff out of the storage since it’s in the same floor as your dorm
Don’t stress too much as you are going to have a good time at college once again
Grace :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 9:57 am
I know how you feel cause im like that aswell, lazy to make friends and not i feel so alone since everyone has their own cliques already. Sigh! then again i just cant click with them. i think its the education background and such. owh and i think you’ve told us about your grandma and underwear story already. goodness i actually remember what you wrote.
Mei :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 10:13 am
hahaha i also got read every single word wan okayy wtf.
tell u story. i was like u when i was 6yo. but much more worse than u. i dun wear undies and like to wear dresses and skirts. and everytime i sit down, i will lift my skirt HIGH UP and sit on my bum wtf wtf WTF!!!!!! but that’s old story okayy T_T
carol :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 10:34 am
i have 1500 rollover minutes to finish up come I call you every night haha. eh but night is practically unlimited what la at the rate this is going those minutes will be wasted T.T
muah take care aight and come down to NY when you’re bored (or i’ll go up when i’m tired of the city; i don’t have friday classes)
lynette tan :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 10:57 am
hahaha u damn funny. i read every single word u wrote.
i used to be really worried that i might not make any friends in uni. but thank god i eventually did. you’ll do great la. ure definitely not as anti-social as me
safe trip back 
whimsicaljottings :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 11:07 am
At least you will be going back to a place where they speak English. NO ONE speaks English here. SOBSSSSSS
:(
tzeching :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 12:01 pm
closer to ur friends means me right /beams
when i go back to UK we can talk more!!! i’ll call u ok dont try to save credit sei kiamsiap wtf
Abby :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 1:51 pm
u know kan that happened to me.. my 3 housemates left me all at one go and i was left alone. it was hard and i was really sad but it worked out after that… and i get what u mean abt the china ching chong.. damn dramatic kan i dnt like talking to them cos i feel so overpowered.
be good and everything will be fine!
x
ding :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 4:46 pm
it’s not antisocial,
schizoid is the right word.
stay alive suet bai!
Francesca :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 9:52 pm
Preety Suet … don’t be scared !
U can do it !!!!!
if anything happen, close the door n watch lots of drama movies !!! ^__^
gambate ne
ipohmali :
Date: September 2, 2008 @ 10:26 pm
you are very funny girl. we like it.
kindly link me up so that people will come to my blog.
thanks
ipoh
perak
www.ahmike.net :
Date: September 3, 2008 @ 6:22 am
yala i think ur really nice la.. hey i just notice u have a nice necklace oh, is it necklace at the last photo?
green tea :
Date: September 3, 2008 @ 6:41 am
Actually I read this post just when you posted it but I decided that you’re gonna get a lot of comments all saying the same things so may as well not comment. I read the entire post ok! But sign I’ve decided to post because well good luck don’t be scared! I used to be scared too and even contemplated being a college drop out because I thought that was better than having no friends or befriending ghosts lah. But I guess it’s all natural and I love college now and my room mate is coming back too (my room mate didn’t come for two semesters because she met with a car accident.. so I feel you)
Shanshan :
Date: September 3, 2008 @ 7:23 am
=( i wish i would already b in the dorm when u arrived…
we can video chat after i get out of hospital…=D hope u meet some nice people in college this semester. im sure u will!!
dd :
Date: September 3, 2008 @ 7:35 am
bo cheng teh ko also get caned ar..cruel grandma man..
angeliCassie :
Date: September 3, 2008 @ 7:54 am
hope you reach US safely and weeee have a great semester =)
sweatlee :
Date: September 3, 2008 @ 4:59 pm
i’m alive but barely, want to faint T________T 42 fucking hours just to get here. will reply comments later.
Michael :
Date: September 4, 2008 @ 1:41 pm
wow! must get ur thing done first lol…unpacking is seriously much more harder than packing…
The Faux Fashionista :
Date: September 4, 2008 @ 2:39 pm
Wekcome back!! I’m back too ;P Let me know when you’re settled, and email me your address so I can send you that thing I promised!
-aiping- :
Date: September 8, 2008 @ 2:38 pm
Awww… I know what u mean.. I was dreading coming back here too… and now i also don’t have friends in this new place here and I’m lonely everyday.. So u know what you should do when you’re sad? Come down to NYC and stay in my extra bed and i can be your new best friend.. haha.. but yes, do come down! I miss Malaysian company!
Devin Richardson :
Date: November 12, 2008 @ 6:36 pm
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