Sweat Betul

OK It’s officially 1 month since I came back and what I’ve been doing for the whole month? NOTHING! That’s what! I’m seriously sick of bumming already I need something to do! But I need something that does not need money, something that doesn’t require me to drive cause I don’t have a car, take bus/train cause they’re tiring, and walk too much under the sun and risk getting myself robbed. Ok what should I do if I don’t want to do all of the above??

Give me a suggestion please! I already sent my resume to several places but no good news so far sigh and I might have to cancel the WAO thing cause I can’t drive there and they are 30 minutes away from the nearest train station and it’ll be too tiring to get a bus to the ktm station, change to lrt THEN walk 30 minutes every morning! Seriously, anyone working in a company that needs help and wants to hire interns? I don’t care what kind of company at all I just want to gain whatever experience and not sit at home and play sims everyday haha

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today I finally went to Marie France!! Okay let me tell you guys alllll about it so you can decide for yourself if you should go or not.

Remember I had RM1,500 voucher right? I went in to ask if I can use it and they said yeah, so I went ahead and met the consultant. One great thing about them was their service cause although the consultant knew I was going to use the voucher, she didn’t really behave differently as I thought she would wtf you know like care less about you kinda thing. However, I was mortified (YES mortified) to find out that one session itself costs RM845! 0.o zomg.

In one session, there are 3 different procedures (which i will explain later) that cost about RM250 each. So if I were to use the RM1500 I have, I can only go for TWO sessions! BUT, there’s always a but here, if I am to buy 10 sessions, instead of RM 8450, it’ll only be RM2200! How amazing right wtf so anyway she said I only have to pay extra RM 700 since I have 1,500. I obviously said no and said I’ll go ahead with the two sessions but she warned me that 2 sessions won’t be as effective as 10 (obviously) and I might not see much results.

The idealistic me wants to pay that rm700 very much cause I’ve always wanted to be thinner than normal (grass is always greener on the other side!)but the realistic me says rm700 is way too much so I told the consultant that I only want to try the two sessions first.

Soooo anyway, I went ahead to start my first session!

First step is the cold wrap (which is around rm295 wtf I can do this at home too wei!). The consultant asked me to get naked wtf and then she wrapped some cold cloth around my tummy (since that’s the area I wanna target). I had to then wait for around 30 minutes which I spent rather wisely reading about Jamie Lynn’s relationship with her sister wtf.

After the cold wrap, I was ushered into another room where I was to get a massage. Another consultant came to give me a tummy massage for another 20 minutes or so and thus ended the second step which cost around RM350 (siao not even full body massage). After the massage, I had to go to another room which I was to lie down and she spread some warming thing on my tummy. Then, I was wrapped with some thick thing which was then heated. I had to lie there for around 30 minutes and fell asleep and had a dream about having the best body in the world WTF

So that was all! All that for RM845 wei and obviously, after the first session, I didn’t notice a single difference at all. Final verdict: too expensive if you want to actually see good results so go for it if you are really rich enough to do so. Unless of course, you want to go for the 10 sessions plan but then you’d have to go at least once a month after that to maintain or something like that.

Anywayyy I’m starting my month long gym with Barry soon, which is only RM30 for the TWO of us for a month plus some trainer thingy. I think I’m gonna see wayyy more result than marie france and it’s 40 times cheaper too!

Oh yeah, also, before going for the marie france, I kept eating a lot because I thought MF can save me wtf but since it’s only two sessions now, I guess I can’t binge so much again =( Although I just ate at SS2 murni (loh shee fun and soft shell crab fried rice mmm) after going for my first session haha

I know I’m not destined for these kinda stuff lah cause you know why! The first thing I noticed when the woman gave me a tour around was the biscuits they had on some counter. I was eyeing the biscuits for some time, hoping that they’ll give me some but alas they didn’t  =(

Oh one more thing! I just noticed this today but whenever I finish a satisfying meal, I always wish I can turn back time and start the whole process of me savoring my meal again. Like, I’ll wish that my stomach is empty again and the plate is full again so I can do the eating part all over again wtf WHY AM I SO WEIRD sigh which is why I can never be stick thin and also I finally found the secret as to why some people can never grow fat no matter how much they eat! it’s cause THEY SHIT EVERYDAY LOR I SWEAR THIS IS THE REASON

which also means! I finally found the secret on how to lose weight even if you love food *big wet eyes. screw marie france! the secret is just shit everyday=eat more fiber=buy more cereal! whoop dee doo wtf

Do not fear for I am here! Luckily I did this video last week so at least I have something to blog about now.

Still very super busy with my exams until no time to shit also and I only ate a total of one orange in the past 4 days T_T cause no time to sit down and peel the orange also. I’m soososoossoso worried about my exam! But how I cheer myself up is I just keep telling myself that grades DON’T MATTER and I’m here to learn ok and if anyone dares to tell me otherwise imma hunt you down when I’m back in msia.

Anyway here’s a video of how I curl my hair. Again, it’s not perfect but it’s how I do it. I’m using a conair curler that I got from walmart for only $15 (rm45). Sorry maybe my hair color is too dark cause the curls don’t really show much in the video.

Happy curling! And I know the subtitles damn lame lah but I’m so stressed out from my exams can you just let me have some fun with myself in peace!

Also, you should probably apply some conditioner/ heat protector to your hair first before curling to avoid damage. Not sure where you can find a good one cause good ones are expensive so I only got a cheap $3 one which I only used once wtf. No wonder my hair like twigs now.

Oh yeah here’s another video I did for the mcD chant thingy.

p.s: sorry no time to reply all your comments but thanks anyway. No, it’s not as easy as just predicting how severe the US recession will be but we have to analyze each component of GDP and predict for each and also come up with our own policy recommendations. I’m taking the paper tomorrow sighhhh T___T good luck suet! thank you.

SERIOUSLY I’M SO ANGRY NOW!!! WHY DO I HAVE SO MUCH WORK TO DO HAH HAH WHY PLEASE TELL ME WHY! WHY DO I HAVE 4 FINALS AND 3 PAPERS!!!!

so angry!!! why do those professors think we have no other classes except theirs! why must they give us so much pressure! seriously why am i doing this! why am i studying econ and history of chinese civilization and game theory and french! why am i paying so much and travel so far to cause undue stress upon myself! why didn’t i just stay in malaysia!

why am i here why T___T i’m so stupid seriously today i was walking with these two other girls from my econ class and i was telling them i’m kinda scared for the econ final and they said don’t worry the midterms weren’t that hard anyway………..what do you mean! i got C for my midterm what do you mean it wasn’t hard T__________T

i swear i’m the stupidest girl on campus why i everything also cannot do ask me to differentiate native rulers and foreign rulers in ancient china also i cannot do! ask me to interpret confucius’ the great learning also i cannot do! ask me about my prediction of agg. expenditure due to the US recession also i cannot do T____T i can’t even decide properly when to use passe compose or imparfait T____T

why am i torturing myself why do i have to learn all this crap can i just go to some cooking/cleaning school where they teach women how to cook and clean and stay sexy until they die please!

Haih let me be the first to open such a school la. everyday learn how to sew/cook/clean/do makeup/stay slim only so fun. haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh mary lyon (my college’s founder) is gonna rise from her grave and haunt me for life wtf cause so un-feminist.

complain so much also no use still have to get back to reality….like now……………………………….very sad angry frustrated annoyed huuhuh maybe cause period coming also. why does it suck so much to be a girl huhuuh everytime have to waste money on pads/tampons/bras and if boobs not big enough then feel insecure if tummy not flat enough then get called a wild boar HAIH

anyway this is a video of what we do when we’re bored/how i release my anger/why we are the fun-est couple ever

I KNOW I LOOK DAMN UGLY BUT I’M SUFFERING FROM ALL KINDS OF SADNESS/TRAUMA AND I’M FKING PMSING NOW SO IF YOU SAY I LOOK UGLY I’M GONNA MAKE SURE I SEND 119048194 VIRUSES TO YOU

no i’m serious wtf

p.s: eh i suddenly have a great idea! should i just quit college now and become a full time blogger wtf i shall take one year to study the skills of how to be world no. 1 blogger and earn my living like that! great idea suet! *pats self and throws books away

p.p.s: most beautiful french song =)

I’ve always been battling with weight issues since I was young. As long as I can remember, I’ve never been thin before (like normal thin or thinner than normal). I’ve always been chubby or fat or slightly meaty and I hate it so much. I hate going to a relative’s house and hear the same old “wah fatter already!” or hear people calling me fat. When I was 12, I had a birthday party in my house and invited all my ‘close’ friends. Before they left, they sat in a circle and sang me a song. It went like this:

Suet li suet li sangat gemuk!! Selalu makan dan jadi semakin gemuk!!

In the tune of the mat kool mat kool kawanku song. I was 12, it was my birthday and I got humiliated by my friends in front of my other relatives. Everyone laughed and so did I but little did anyone know how hurt I was inside. I told myself that I’ll always always remember that day cause one day, I’ll be the thinnest of them all and I can in turn laugh at them back. (failed)

During the holidays when I was 12/13/14, we would stay with our grandparents. My grandma would always make maggi mee for my siblings at night when they were hungry and forbid me from touching any of it. She’d also force me to jump on the trampoline outside the house while watching them slurp their maggi inside T___T sometimes, when everyone was outside playing, she’d make me do the jumping rope thingy and she’d sit there and watch me jump my fats away. I hated trampolines and ropes ever since.

When I was 15, I told myself that I cannot let myself be the butt of all jokes anymore. Guys calling me wildboar was too cruel for me to bear so during the holidays, I willingly tried losing weight. I cycled up and down the hill everyday while singing to my heart’s content, I built a basketball ring and board with wires and wood and practiced my lay up everyday and I even use the dunno what rolling machine that will tone your abs. Then, I went back to school and started a basketball team and joined the school’s track team with one goal: lose as much weight as possible. So in that one year, I lost about 8kg.

Yeah so I’ve always had an issue with my weight. My biggest secret after the one about my imaginary bf is that I’ve always wanted to be anorexic. I wish that I can cut my food up and not eat it, that I’ll be thin as hell and yet still feel fat so nobody will ever say I’m fat anymore. But sadly it never happened. I did try cutting my food to a million pieces but ended up eating everything =.= I tried hardcore exercise but always ate a lot after that so haih plan failed.

I swear I have superpower ok and my power is that I have a stomach made of steel..worst power ever. Aud told me when she gets diarrhea, she’ll lose a lot of weight and I’ve been waiting for the day I get diarrhea but either my stomach is way too strong or even if I do get diarrhea, I don’t lose weight at all. My bro has worms so he’s always thin and I always wish I’m the one with the worms instead but haih worms also lose to my stomach T__T

I’ve tried leftovers, spicy food, dirty food, accidentally ter-ate my nose shit (WTF DON’T ASK) but I will never get diarrhea lor! I only had food poisoning once in my life but I recovered 3 hours after that. When I got the worst fever in my life, I couldn’t eat for a week and yet I didn’t lose any weight.

So anyway why am I talking about all this cause I just found out an orange has 70 calories each T_________________________________________T and I just ate 6 oranges again today seriously I’m destined to never be thin. Yalah I know everyone sure damn unhappy cause I’m complaining even though I don’t look fat but that’s only cause obviously I won’t post unflattering pictures of myself. You have no idea how truly big my tummy is even after all that years of hardcore exercising. And my stupid ribcage and bones are so big until dunno what so I can never have a slim stature ok T_T

The worst thing is today when I finally weighed myself after a month of going to gym 3/4 times a week and eating less, I found out that I gained weight T_____T how is this possible you tell me is someone playing some sort of funny game on me ah! *memories of suet li suet li sangat gemuk and jumping on trampoline flooding back wtf T___T

I give up lah sigh I’ll just do whatever I want and weigh whatever lah I don’t care anymore! This battle with my weight is officially over! *lies to self wtf

I really just wanna be slim is that too much to ask for! I don’t wanna be meaty and yet so flat and have no curves! If meaty and well-endowed and got curves then nevermind la this one all also don’t have got one big lump which is my tummy only sigh.

*anticlimactic ending cause too sleepy already

I got back three of my midterms today and let’s just say I did..fairly ok. Not great but not bad either I guess. I got 89 for my game theory class, an A- for my history paper and 94 for my French and before you go wow isn’t that great! let me tell you that 89 is a B+ and 94 is an A-. To get an A, it’s 95 and above ok T______T Why is life so hard here haih. To think that back in those high school days, 75 is yay! cause it’s already an A and anything more than 90 is considered either impossible or wayyy impossible wtf.

Amidst all these sadness in life, I’m happy cause I’m going to Boston this weekend to attend the Malaysian forum! Do you wanna know a secret? The main reason why I’m so excited is cause I get to meet Malaysians and speak Msian accent and *hopefully* eat some free Msian food. oh! and also there’s some semi-formal thing at night so we get to dress up =DD Why am I like this T__T People attend the forum to discuss current issues of great importance to our Bolehland and all I care about is free food and dressing up T____T

The forum starts at 8am omg I swear I’ll fall asleep! And the worst thing is I can’t depend on Aud to wake me up cause she’ll definitely fall asleep before me even after drinking 10 cups of coffee wtf. Then you can see us both struggling to run out from the room cause got diarrhea from the coffee T__T (it happened before ok and it’ll happen again so if you see two girls squeezing past you please cover your nose HAHHAHA WTF NO LAH WE’RE NOT THAAAT DISGUSTING OK ha..ha..i was just joking *convincing smile wtf)

Other than that then I guess nothing new is happening in my life kua.. Come back here=no nice camwhore pictures. Oh I have something very crucial to discuss now. You see, I’m going back to Msia in the summer right (HALLELUJAH) and I’m in dire need of an internship of any kind. Nuffnang is welcoming me with open arms (i hope..) but I think I should try something else instead. I’m hoping to major in Econ so I need to look for an internship in like..an investment bank or something. So if you have advices on this matter, please tell me?

But right, I really cannot see myself working in an investment bank. The money will be soooo good but I don’t think I’ll be happy there..What I really want to do in life (eh big secret so listen up! wtf) is..I really want to be a kindergarten teacher. I want to teach kids and play with them everyday, and that’ll be a dream come true for me! As impatient as I can be, I surprisingly have a rather high level of tolerance with kids (as long as they are below 8 and don’t put me in awkward situations like ask me what is sex wtf)

But then again, I can’t possibly pay so much to study in the states and graduate with a degree in econ and work as a kindy teacher! Haihhhh I guess we can’t have everything in life. Happiness=no money or lots of $$$=unhappy Suet? But doesn’t lots of $$$=happy Suet as well? So does happiness without money trumps happiness that is bought with money?

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So I don’t know..maybe I should try working in an NGO or something this summer to see if I like that kinda life first? I dunno..unicef? awam? ymca wtf?

Haih I started this post with a light heart but now my heart weighs a tonne thinking about all this. I can’t lie to myself when I know that the only probable reason why I’m majoring in Econ is cause I know it’ll guarantee me a somewhat secure and good future. I (still) don’t even know what I want to do with my life even after being here for a year leh how T____T Barry can you please study harder and earn millions so I can marry you and be a kindy teacher please please =( But then, I’ll disappoint mt holyoke lah they teach us how to be independent women and I’m here wishing to marry a rich man..

Haih haih sigh until shanshan can hear me from the toilet wtf. Whatever lah let me go eat and feed my miseries wtf.

I have so many questions but no answers to any of them at all. It’s okay, don’t even try to answer them cause I won’t trust anyone.

Someone told me today that she finally believes in God. I don’t know what to say or believe in anymore. God? Pfft. You can’t and shouldn’t believe in anyone but yourself. You make your choices and decisions in life, and nothing is ever god’s will or plan. There may be luck or fate, but you shouldn’t trust all your important life decisions to the whims of a superior being. What is the point of living, if you’re not living your life but one that has already been mapped out.

No I’m not a complete Atheist. I’m really a more atheist agnostic than an atheist but some things seem really obvious to me from the beginning. I know that if god exists, he would be sitting in a corner and not interfering with the lives of his creations; otherwise, he would be responsible for every human catastrophe in history. Don’t give me the “god is punishing us” spiel; a merciful god would not allow innocents to die, and an angry god should not be worshiped in the first place. I’m not going to say more about this cause I know how it feels like to believe in something very strongly and then have someone blatantly shoot down your beliefs without much proof. So! I’m going to take some religion classes next semester in hopes of finding answers to my questions. I don’t want to be the naive girl who sits in the corner and refuses to try to understand things from a different perspective.

Just a note. Today, I still believe that god does not exist and he is merely man-made. Religions were created by men so that people will have something to have faith in, so that life does not seem meaningless, so that they have someone to turn to and blame if all else fails. I still think no one should have to do something they think god wants them to do, and no one should have to choose a path in life that’s supposedly god’s will.

I’m blogging now not cause I’m stressed so no funny weird random stupid lame pictures, sorry. I’m blogging cause I just finished 3/4 of my second paper! I feel soooo good cause I only spent a total of maybe 4 hours writing it (which is considerably less than what I usually spend on a paper..at least 4 days?) I’m so freaking productive you don’t even know it ok wtf! So so productive I swear if there’s a Most Productive Student award I’ll so win second! cause Audrey will get number one, she wrote hers in like 2 hours haha.

We spent the whole of Friday night and Saturday on a conference (not party boo hoo) on the Rise of China and it was really good. One of the talks that got us all excited was a talk by this professor (who was really cute..in a Mr Bean way wtf) who was talking about the implications of the rise of China on South East Asian countries and he concentrated on Malaysia! That’s OUR country yo!

But it wasn’t really a good thing cause everything he said spells out doomsday for our economy. We are too complacent, we are not showing any progress, there is no R&D, the tertiary education needs a whole new boost, everyone thinks the economy is doing alright when it’s not etc. I’m not gonna dwell on that much cause I don’t think I’m good enough to evaluate this problem properly yet. Let me get my degree in econ and I’ll write a thesis on it lah *hopeful

I was telling Aud my idealistic idea of what I want to happen to us. I want allllllll Malaysians from every nook and cranny in this world to suddenly feel patriotic and return to our homeland. I want them to disregard what the government has (not) done to us and together, we will all hold hands and rebuild our economy and country. We will not care about our race and skin color, we will not care about our status and name and there will be equity for all. We will not care who actually came to Msia first, be it Parameswara or Ah Chong wtf, we will work together to make Malaysia the best country in the world!

Can this really happen? No. In reality, it will never ever happen. In fact, I don’t even know what is going to happen anymore. I’m happy (so very happy) that BN did not win 2/3 of the parliament and that the people is finally strong and brave enough to make the wise choice (but is it really a wise choice?) but I have mixed feelings about this. So yes, in reality, what I want to happen will never happen but I can always hope and be the naive girl that I am.

I’m really just the naive girl who wants to go back and serve her country without any qualms. I’m just the naive girl who wants to love every single person in her country despite the obvious differences. Sometimes, just for a minute or two, I’m happy being the naive girl I am now. So just let me stay in my idealistic world for a little while more ok?

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The next 4 years will prove to be the most exciting time for us all!

As you can see, I suck at writing about politics……so I’m not gonna say more.

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EVERYONE, please visit this site! It’s a site that donates rice through the UN World Food Program and all you have to do is just play the word game! Every time you guess the meaning of a word correctly, you donate 20 grains! So worth it ok! Now if your mom nags at you when you don’t finish your rice, tell her you just donated 1000 grains to Africa la wtf.

Not only will you donate rice, you’ll improve your vocab also leh damn good. Eh Mayzhee faster go play la wtf

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Lamest convo in the history of mankind wtf

Seriously I don’t know why are we like this also =.= We are in mt holyoke ok one of the best liberal art colleges and yet..

FUCK THIS SHIT TODAY IS DAYLIGHT SAVINGS!!!!!!!!! It was 2am 1 second ago and now it’s 3am T________T an entire hour gone stupid huhuhuuhuhuhu

Tagged by Tze! I don’t really wanna do this cause I don’t have much to write but she threatened to cut all ties with me if I don’t wtf

Skin Care
What facial cleanser do you use?

Shiseido’s white lucent. I don’t think I got fairer after using this though.

What moisturizer do you use?

Seriously those marketing people will love me lor cause I always believe when they say you must use the same brand for cleanser, toner and moisturizer wtf.

How many times a day do you wash your face?
tee hee once only before I sleep tee hee
Do you use eye makeup remover?
of course!

If so, What kind?

From Sasa one RM 30 something damn expensive wtf but it’s not too bad

Is your skin oily, dry, or combination skin?
dry and sensitive =(

What is the best part about your skin?
I like my skin! I get fair easily! Last time I used to be really dark cause I played basketball at 12pm under the hot sun but it only took me a month or so to get fair back =D

What are your skin problems?
erm can be a tad too sensitive

Makeup
What foundation do you use?
none cause too expensive la wtf
What powder do you use?
Silkygirl HAHAHHA OMG I’M SUCH AN EMBARRASSMENT!!!

What eyebrow pencil do you use?
none la my eyebrows so thick already some more ask me to draw ah

What eyeliner do you use?

Some brand from Japan that Aud got for me <3
What is your favorite eyeshadow?
My eyeshadow from Silkygirl also la cause so cheap okay RM15 for one. My ultimate dream is to get MAC’s eyeshadow /big wet eyes

What mascara do you use?

It’s really good!!! and cheap!

What are your favorite lipbalms/glosses/sticks?:
Vaseline wtf haih fail again =.=

Hair
Do you color your hair?
Yeap

What is your stylists name?
Don’t remember. I always change to whoever is cheaper la wtf

What salon do you go to?
Where ever that is cheapest. I’m sorry I don’t know why am I like this too
What is your natural hair color?
I used to have really brown hair with gold highlights (natural one ok) but it got darker when I grew up

Do you have a straightener?
no but i’m gonna buy one

What kind?
the cheapest one wtf

Do you use a blowdryer?
don’t have one

What shampoo do you use?

It smells soooo freaking heavenly
What conditioner do you use?

Dove. Lazy wanna look for a picture

Do you use leave in conditioner?
nope aih no need to ask me so many questions lah basically I don’t have a lot of stuff cause don’t wanna buy wtf

Scents
What deodorant do you use?
none I’m sorry ok contrary to my name, I do not sweat that much wtf

What body wash do you use?
SHOKUBUTSU HAHAHAHHA the orange one so nice

What perfumes do you use or like? Name five.
I didn’t bring any of my perfume here but I only had two back home anyway.

and some burberry one my dad just got for me, forgot the name.

Do you always have to smell good?
erm………

Jewelry
Are diamonds really a girl’s best friend?
no comment wtf

What is your jewelry essential?
no comment wtf

What jewelry do you wear most?
I only have my gold necklace my mom gave me 19 years ago =)

What jewelry do you crave most?
No comment wtf i’m so low maintenance sial

Purses and Shoes
How many purses do you own?
1. I bought it for my mom and she gave it back to me cause she bought a new one T__T

How many shoes do you own?
less than 10 la including boots

Which pair is your favorite?
All! if not i won’t buy right? Knowing me, I only buy if I really really like it. I usually spend 1 hr choosing and sometimes not buy any T_T

Who is your favorite handbag designer?
I like LV and Prada but can only stare from afar wtf

Who is your favorite shoe designer?
Vincci wtf hahahah

This or that;
Manolos or Jimmy Choos?
Choo cause he was my boyfriend’s mom’s neighbor (true story ok!)

Dolce and Gabbana or Chanel?
Chanel I think I can’t even differentiate them

Micheal Kors or Bebe?
Bebe cause it sounds like baby wtf no wait actually it sounds like a pasar malam brand

Louis Vuitton or Coach?
LV cause more expensive wtf but coach bags are alright too and they’re kinda cheap here

Gucci or Prada?
Both!

Miscellaneous

Favorite Magazine to read?
none

Favorite nail polish?
none. the last one I bought was only $1 from a goth shop wtf

Favourite Book?
WHATEVER HARUKI MURAKAMI WROTE OBVIOUSLY

Favorite Band?
Can’t decide!

Favorite Girly Movie?
I like all girly movies!

Are you high maintenence?
What do you think wtf

Do you enjoy being a girl?
If I’m not bleeding now, yes.

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p.s: I’m only still going on about this cause I was attacked brutally, not because I still want the issue to go on. At first I really don’t wanna care about it anymore cause I have Zhuangzi to read ok how intellectual wtf but I can’t let someone go on and on about how I’m the bad guy here and try to garner sympathy like that. Seriously I already gave her twice of her normal hits, is this how she repay me T__T

People are saying how I attacked her personally when her fashion sense etc doesn’t have anything to do with Lydia Sum at all. Truth is, I don’t really care about what she said about Lydia and since she apologized so whatever lah. But how many of you here read her blog before and totally got turned off by all that arrogance? I didn’t say her books are bad, did I? Heck I even said I was impressed by the fact that she wrote two books! I was just saying how she likes to brag about being an author, which we can all clearly see and not be reminded of daily.

Like Tze said, it’s totally okay for her to brag (not too much) if she does have substance but she really doesn’t (fashion wise). Wouldn’t you feel like punching me too if I keep going on and on about how I recently bought an Armani top (which I did *proud)? I’m merely echoing everyone’s sentiments too and there is really no need to bash me like that. Some more wanna melebih-lebih insult my wtf T_T Haihhh ok so maybe you’re actually a very nice person in real life but if you chose to portray yourself that way in your blog (arrogant, boastful), then why get mad when people judge you?

I have a million and one things to say but I don’t think she deserves an entire post and at most, only another P.S. and you know what’s worse than only getting a p.s after writing an asslong post about me? I’ll have another p.p.s after this.

p.p.s: Sigh my boyfriend is going to Germany tomorrow for a week T__T But it’s okay cause I’m going to Philadelphia for my Spring Break! Apparently they have the biggest mall or something! =D

Today I achieved Nirvana.

If I complain that I have a lot of work (which I will never do again), she sits there and makes sure I do all my work. If I start chatting or reading blogs, she’ll clear her throat loudly and ask me to do work. Is this a healthy relationship? I’m starting to have doubts wtf.

Hello everyone, I’m in a much better mood already! In my moments of despair, I miraculously watched 12 episodes of Why Why Love o.0 I know this show has the worst title ever but it’s damn nice okay I cried so much T______T And my Rainie Yang and Mike He *big wet eyes

Seriously how I do it again ah? 12 episodes in two days?! One episode is like 1 hour 15 minutes okay god I’m so good. As of now, I have time to blog cause episode 12 is stuck halfway HORROR HORROR so I’m gonna redownload it and hope for the best.

Hmm you know how in dramas, they always have stupid moments like when this guy is kissing this girl and this other girl who is not supposed to be there will somehow mysteriously appear right at that exact moment?! Or when this girl is helping some poor man and the guy will just so happen to walk past and see this and fall in love with the girl?? Seriously damn unrealistic lor! Like how when they turn on the tv/radio then right at that precise moment, they’ll show something that person shouldn’t see on the news etc.

When I was 13, I’d sweep the floor at home and I’d open my door damn wide, hoping that my crush will somehow appear and ter-see me sweeping and think I’m damn hardworking and fall in love with me WTF WHY AM I LIKE THIS DO I HAVE NO SHAME TELLING THIS! yeah but that’s true, that was the only hope that kept me going everyday wtf. I’d think to myself hmm, if my crush’s mother see me now, she’ll go tell her son how I’m such a good girl and he might like me later! Ooooh better clean harder wtf.

Sigh but unlike tv shows, that kinda thing almost never happened to me before. I guess a girl can only dream harder next time.

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Barry was showing me this ridiculous piece of news from home that got me so so so mad!! These kinda things have been happening for some time now and everytime I hear about it, I get so mad. It was about how this chinese guy passed away and his son tak pasal pasal go and tell the police that he actually converted to Muslim. Then the police went to his funeral or something and wanted to take his body to be buried in some muslim cemetery!

1. why the police got nothing better to do than going to people’s funerals and take their bodies ah!?!? Don’t they have snatch thieves to catch!? Rapists to castrate?! Huh? How can they go around telling women it’s their fault for carrying big bags or wearing sexy clothes when it’s their job to look for bad people! As if that’s not bad enough, now they wanna simply go dig up people’s graves!

2. omg seriously why people in this country very like to impose stupid laws one? Just because he apparently converted means they have the right to intrude people’s life is it? So they can’t sleep peacefully cause he’s not buried in muslim’s burial place is it? It’s none of their business in the first place, simply sticking their dirty noses into people’s affairs.

3. What’s with the law that once you converted into muslim, then you can’t un-convert? How can anyone even have the right to say which god you choose to believe in is wrong and once you believe in this god, you can never change your belief?? Maybe this God didn’t give me the B cup I asked for, or the world peace I wanted, so I decide to try another God, why the hell not??! If you’re allowed the right to buy what you like, marry whom you like, elect someone you trust as the president, decide your fate and join the army, then I don’t see why no one can have the right in changing their religion and beliefs.

I’m continuing this post in a password protected post since it can get rather nasty. I will talk about why we’re not allowed to question the supposedly ’sensitive issues’ and you can choose not to read it if you want.

p.s: i just ate ice cream in this -10 celcius weather just cause i like the waffle cone T____T I like the taste of very little ice cream and cone so I had to first put ice cream inside then use my tongue to scrape out most of the ice cream cause i don’t like it and my tongue froze T__T