Sweat Betul

Today I achieved Nirvana.

If I complain that I have a lot of work (which I will never do again), she sits there and makes sure I do all my work. If I start chatting or reading blogs, she’ll clear her throat loudly and ask me to do work. Is this a healthy relationship? I’m starting to have doubts wtf.

Hello everyone, I’m in a much better mood already! In my moments of despair, I miraculously watched 12 episodes of Why Why Love o.0 I know this show has the worst title ever but it’s damn nice okay I cried so much T______T And my Rainie Yang and Mike He *big wet eyes

Seriously how I do it again ah? 12 episodes in two days?! One episode is like 1 hour 15 minutes okay god I’m so good. As of now, I have time to blog cause episode 12 is stuck halfway HORROR HORROR so I’m gonna redownload it and hope for the best.

Hmm you know how in dramas, they always have stupid moments like when this guy is kissing this girl and this other girl who is not supposed to be there will somehow mysteriously appear right at that exact moment?! Or when this girl is helping some poor man and the guy will just so happen to walk past and see this and fall in love with the girl?? Seriously damn unrealistic lor! Like how when they turn on the tv/radio then right at that precise moment, they’ll show something that person shouldn’t see on the news etc.

When I was 13, I’d sweep the floor at home and I’d open my door damn wide, hoping that my crush will somehow appear and ter-see me sweeping and think I’m damn hardworking and fall in love with me WTF WHY AM I LIKE THIS DO I HAVE NO SHAME TELLING THIS! yeah but that’s true, that was the only hope that kept me going everyday wtf. I’d think to myself hmm, if my crush’s mother see me now, she’ll go tell her son how I’m such a good girl and he might like me later! Ooooh better clean harder wtf.

Sigh but unlike tv shows, that kinda thing almost never happened to me before. I guess a girl can only dream harder next time.

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Barry was showing me this ridiculous piece of news from home that got me so so so mad!! These kinda things have been happening for some time now and everytime I hear about it, I get so mad. It was about how this chinese guy passed away and his son tak pasal pasal go and tell the police that he actually converted to Muslim. Then the police went to his funeral or something and wanted to take his body to be buried in some muslim cemetery!

1. why the police got nothing better to do than going to people’s funerals and take their bodies ah!?!? Don’t they have snatch thieves to catch!? Rapists to castrate?! Huh? How can they go around telling women it’s their fault for carrying big bags or wearing sexy clothes when it’s their job to look for bad people! As if that’s not bad enough, now they wanna simply go dig up people’s graves!

2. omg seriously why people in this country very like to impose stupid laws one? Just because he apparently converted means they have the right to intrude people’s life is it? So they can’t sleep peacefully cause he’s not buried in muslim’s burial place is it? It’s none of their business in the first place, simply sticking their dirty noses into people’s affairs.

3. What’s with the law that once you converted into muslim, then you can’t un-convert? How can anyone even have the right to say which god you choose to believe in is wrong and once you believe in this god, you can never change your belief?? Maybe this God didn’t give me the B cup I asked for, or the world peace I wanted, so I decide to try another God, why the hell not??! If you’re allowed the right to buy what you like, marry whom you like, elect someone you trust as the president, decide your fate and join the army, then I don’t see why no one can have the right in changing their religion and beliefs.

I’m continuing this post in a password protected post since it can get rather nasty. I will talk about why we’re not allowed to question the supposedly ’sensitive issues’ and you can choose not to read it if you want.

p.s: i just ate ice cream in this -10 celcius weather just cause i like the waffle cone T____T I like the taste of very little ice cream and cone so I had to first put ice cream inside then use my tongue to scrape out most of the ice cream cause i don’t like it and my tongue froze T__T

Haha everyone tertipu that I cut my hair I’m so good at lying! I didn’t want to lie at first but then it looked so real right? All I did was tie my hair in a high small bun and push the remaining down to my left side (which is why all the pictures are of me from the left only).

I like how I look with short hair so I might cut it when I go back to Msia for summer, just for a change. The last time I cut my hair real short was in Form 3 and everyone called me mushroom for a good month or two T__T I regretted it for years and lived in darkness wtf. To cut hair here in US, it will probably cost you around $50 plus another maybe $15 for tips. Damn expensive okay and that price doesn’t guarantee you a nice haircut at all. Therefore, I’ve decided to entrust my precious hair in the hands of my boyfriend and his layering scissors tomorrow for a slight trim. My hair is reaching my butt now and that’s wayyy too long for me to handle.

I just watched No Country For Old Men and am having mixed feelings about it now. I’m someone who totally live by IMDB and I trust that site with all my heart and soul. If IMDB says it’s an 8.6 then I really believe that it’s an 8.6! If IMDB says it’s a 5 then by no means am I gonna watch such a stinkin’ show! I came out of the cinema feeling like I should like the movie but at the same time not know if I really liked it. It’s a good movie, of course, but I’m just not so sure if it deserves an 8.6 on IMDB.

*spoiler ahead*

It’s a disturbing movie about how messed up this world really is. It’s about this hunter who accidentally chanced upon some dead Mexicans, drugs and $2 million and it’s a wild goose chase between that hunter, a deranged serial killer, a sheriff and more Mexicans. The show ended with the hunter dead after being killed by the mexicans, his wife dead after being killed by the serial killer who killed her just for the heck of it and the killer walked away free. The moral of the story? Sometimes things are meant to be left alone. If you’ve already gave in your best and couldn’t do nothing no more, then maybe it’s time to give up. The sheriff gave up on the chase so he got away scott-free, the hunter didn’t, so he ended up dead.

I like how the killer wasn’t caught in the end cause in reality, not all the bad people are caught anyway. This ain’t a country for old men, and how true that sounds. In fact, this ain’t a place for nobody to live in anymore. That movie scared the hell outta me. I came out thinking of how dangerous this whole world really is and ain’t anyone can do nothing about it. I hate that.

I’m an idealist at heart. I want this world to be the way I envisioned it to be. Happy. Happy. and happy. I want no war, I want everyone to speak the same language, have the same religion (if die die also want a religion) and to love everyone. If God really exist, then why does he create such an ugly world? Yeah yeah I know what people are gonna say to that. You’re gonna say that God didn’t make the world this way, people did, right? I say go to bed and when you wake up with better replies than that, then I’ll listen to you. I don’t see why anyone needs to believe in a superior someone, someone who’s supposedly omnipotent and omniscient, and yet return nobody’s pleas. (but let’s talk about this some other time)

I also watched Sweeney Todd the other day and I liked it. I’ve never not like anything that has Johnny Depp in it and again, he does not disappoint. Lotsa blood in the movie which is okay cause I covered my eyes through it all wtf. But oh he’s soooo good, as usual.

Eh my this post damn kao sien right?! Talk about old men and barber, like who cares?! Okay let’s move on to more interesting topics like how I’m so hooked on this game on Nintendo DS Lite and when I put make up on my boyfriend hohoho.

This is me playing Ace Attorney. It’s a lawyer game where you have to solve cases etc which is really fun!!

This is Barry’s eye with make up. His eyelashes damnnn long! He doesn’t let me put the rest of the pictures and I’m gonna be a good girl and do what he says cause he’s gonna do something real bad to me if I don’t..

We cooked fish curry for his host family the other day *salivates. It was soooo spicy. I think I can’t eat spicy food anymore T__T

More dogs, if you’re not sick of seeing animals in my blog already.

p.s: Okay Timothy pimped me on his blog and my hits went up like 100 or so and I told him I can easily pump up his too so click on his link cause there’s this damn hot girl on his blog ok! (wtf .oh and he’s the founder of nuffnang so if you visit his blog right, he’ll give you more ads one!! wtf)

p.p.s: This is damn outdated but if anyone needs SAT prep books, please tell me.

Eh shit lah this is my most boring entry to date okay let me add something to spice it up.

I’m officially 49.8 kg now. (48.5 in the morning, 48.2 after I pee) There you go T_________T I know I don’t look like it but I AM that fat okay. I’m only 156 cm so that is rather heavy ok. *whine whine whine like a girl wtf

I just can’t help it that I like food so much. Tze was telling me that she loses a lot of weight during exams cause she won’t eat but me, me..T______T

Queen Suet says: if im studying, the only thing i look forward to is when i wanna eat wtf
Queen Suet says: like around 5 then very kan cheong cause dinner time coming wtf
Queen Suet says: so cant concentrate and study wtf
tzeching. says: WTF HAHAHAAHAHHA
tzeching. says: and u wonder why you’re fat wtf

woe is me, AGAIN!

p.p.p.s: yes we did say wtf after every sentence, good observation skill i must say.

After all the New York hoo haa aside, let me blog about my one and only wish for xmas and new year. Yes you guessed it right, it’s world peace *dabs wet eyes cause too touched wtf

Righttt..

Anyway my one and only wish this year, as like any other year, is to have bigger boobs. I know I know please don’t go WTF SHUT UP LAH because you really don’t understand my misery okay T_____T

If you are:

1. someone who goes aiyah big boobs for what no use also! but when you see a picture of two girls who look exactly alike but one with normal looking B cup boobs and one who is completely flat, (look me in the eyes now and be completely honest)which one will you look at first? obviously the one with boobs right!!! (i can see everyone going ahh, she’s so right! wtf)

2. someone who already has relatively normal boobs and won’t understand my pain

3. a man

then you don’t need to read this post cause you won’t understand how I feel anyway. Okay that aside, let’s continue with this nonsensical post.

God please, I know you know I always tell people that you don’t exist. I know I always give you a major headache with my long list for xmas etc but now, I’ve shortened my list to just ONE thing! Okay I’ll give you ONE more chance to prove yourself to me, God. If I wake up tomorrow with B cup boobs, I swear in front of all these people that I will forever be indebted to you after this. I’ll be the next mahatma gandhi/ mother theresa and I’ll make sure world peace won’t be a taboo anymore.

BUT if I wake up tomorrow with the same ol’ grapes for my boobs, I will once and for all renounce my faith in you. (not that I haven’t almost already). Pleaseee God all you have to do is just lift up your almighty fingers, grab that plasticine or clay and paste it on my chest! (NOT TUMMY OK)

So why am I not satisfied with my current grapes? I don’t see why I need to answer this but have you ever tried on the nicest dress/top ever and when you look into the mirror you see the most beautiful girl staring back at you BUT when you look lower you see an emptiness so vast it blinds your eyes?! It sucks I tell you.

I tried on push ups the other day and it didn’t work either, like..nothing was pushed up! I tried wonderbra and the one with water too but nothing worked. I’m so frustrated I feel like changing my sex huhuh. I mean if I’m small sized and thin and have no boobs then I wouldn’t have minded cause it will be proportionate to my body but I’m neither small nor thin!

T_____T Barry asked me if I have to sacrifice one thing for just one cup bigger what will it be? I said my tummy T_T Sorry tummy I’d have to trade you in this time T_T

Sigh how! I’ve already decided. If God didn’t work his miracles by tomorrow, I’ll give myself another few years. When I’m 22 (after college) and when I obviously can’t grow no more, I’ll get breast implants. (and as soon as i device a plan on how to hide them new boobs from my parents wtf) There you go, secret’s out. It’s not easy living with 12 year old boobs for the rest of your life okay and I shall hear no more about this!

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Okay okay here’s the picture of the smallest dog in the world! Ok maybe not in the world, but she’s the smallest compared to all the cats!

Her name’s Lucy! Like Lucy in the sky with diamonds..

She shivers whenever I pick her up

So small! you can easily kill her with one step!

She likes to shake my hand but won’t stand still for one shot

Midnight and Isaboo

Midnight sleeping near my feet

Baby Jesus wtf

Santa Claus, where are my B cup boobs!?

very nice decoration, it has lights too!

the people will move around on the skating rink!

Man, I’ve been blogging for 4 hours now, amidst all that chatting and blog-surfing but it’s okay, it’s not like I have anything else to do anyway. Ho hum life is sooo good when you have nothing to do.

The guys are playing video games now and I shouted “I’m bored” but no one cared. I just tried “I’m naked!” but only Barry looked at me. What does that girl from Final Fantasy have that I don’t! Must be the boobs =(

p.s: grades are out! my gpa is pretty good =DDD but that’s probably cause my classes this semester are really easy. One more month till next semester T__T

p.p.s: it’s finally -23 celcius now T_________T

OH. MY. GOD

I can’t believe this is all happening back home! In Malaysia!

The road I used to take to Nuffnang’s office everyday!

I got lost here once! near Masjid Jamek right??

(pictures from kickdefella.wordpress)

Everything is so familiar and scary. I never thought I’ll wake up one day to see all this happening in my country. Burma yes, Thailand yes, but Malaysia??

C’mon isn’t it supposed to be a peaceful protest? Then why the teargas! Why the water with chemical!

I’m so proud of each and everyone of you who was there today. You guys really made history. You guys proved to me that Malaysians are not a bunch of domestic fowls who sit at home and complain incessantly. You proved to me that we, no matter how insignificantly unimportant and small to the making of this country, can make a significantly large difference.

I don’t know if what happened today will actually make a difference, what’s with our own NATIONAL NEWSPAPER refusing to talk about it at all. Seriously, I’ve lost whatever respect I used to have for our local media. Thank you so much for giving us a completely biased and skewed updates of what happened.

Stupid RTM news here

Damn stupid ok not only did they juxtaposed the protest in Malaysia with other obviously much more violent protests in other countries to brainwash us rakyats of how violent these people are, they even say that it’s outside our “budaya”.

Fuck off la!!! What do you mean outside our budaya? Is it our budaya to have corrupted officials in the first place? Is it our budaya to cheat in the national election? IS IT our budaya to simply throw teargas and chemicals at a completely peaceful protest?

If it’s our budaya to oppress other people’s voices, if it’s out budaya to not show what we believe in and hide in the comforts of our own homes forever, then this is not the country where I came from and I don’t want to be a part of it anymore.

A more accurate update here

I know we can’t do shit from where we are

but we can wear yellow =)

HAHHAA that’s Aud transforming into a trash lady wtf

Again, I’m so proud of everyone. I kept wishing that I’m back home so I can march along with pride with these people. I know I’ll surely cry one wtf. Seriously watching the news gave me goosebumps all over what makes you think I won’t cry if I’m there T_T

I love you, brave countrymen (and women).

p.s: Thank you for choosing yellow! It’s my favorite color! I’ve always liked the yellow power ranger anyway wtf. Daulat Tuanku! (these words give me goosebumps too, dunno why)