Sweat Betul

Barry is leaving tomorrow and we’ve been spending an awful lot of time together (24 hours a day instead of the usual 12 wtf I swear someone should just stitch us together), hence the lack of update. He’s packing and weighing his luggage now so I shall do a quick update!

Lazy wanna type too much so here are pictures of what we did last week.

We bought this nose thingy from faceshop which supposedly removes your blackheads but it didn’t work for us! boohoo give me back my rm20

peeling it for me

that’s how dumbos look like

evening walk

happy healthy people with ugly smile cause can see gum T_T

at shell, picking our favorite snacks

we had picnic outside his house! he was shirtless cause it was kinda hot outside. We were eating tuna on toast mmmm

my ultimate favorite snack, prawn crackerssssssss!!!!!! his sucks. i hate potato chips.

on comforter cause we didn’t have picnic mats

listening to across the universe =D

orange smile!

wah my this post like damn tak layan wtf. Ok bye no time to blog!

Sitting cross-legged on the floor, he opened my ’secret box’ with the note “it’s a sin to open someone’s thing without the owner’s permission, amen” on it. Inside, there was another smaller box which had almost the same note, “I said, PLEASE do not open without the owner’s humble permission, amen”. I wrote that 5 years ago when I attended the church religiously, hence the amen.

“Yay! My turn to read your old diary and laugh at you!” he said.

Earlier today, I had read his old diary for the umpteenth time and laughed at all his silly childish remarks. “Today my dad bought me the cool Power Rangers poster” or something lame like that hahaha. Anyway, he ended up getting distracted when he saw some colored papers meant for making stars and started folding them instead, leaving me to rummage through my ’secret’s secret box’

An excerpt. I read it out loud.

” 9/5/2005,

This thursday is our 5th month together, 5 months of bliss, love, jealousy, tears, sugar, spice and everything nice =). I’ve never regretted meeting him before. Never regretted risking my safety to meet a stranger at 5 in the morning. He’s truly the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me.”

My voice quivered and I reached over to hug him.

You’re the best thing that has ever happened to me too, he said.

Choked in my tears, I continued reading my diary.

“He’s like what? an angel sent from the Mighty Fella up there? Barry would so laugh his arse off if he ever reads this”

Hahahaha! Angel?! mighty fella?! We laughed our arses off.

Distance? Fuck distance. Uncertainties? Fuck uncertainties. We can do this.

Things are getting harder and harder each day for us and I don’t know what we or I did to bring us to this stage. I thought love always prevails but that’s not so true after all, is it?

3 years 8 months and still counting. But does that really matter anymore? Should how long we’ve been together be a measurement of how good things are going?

This sucks. I find myself trying less and less to keep this relationship alive. I don’t feel motivated at all when the future seems so uncertain. Distance and more distance, complacency, knowing too much about each other, feeling as if you can’t live one day without seeing the other and just so many gray spots.

I don’t like to live my life not knowing what’s going to happen next. I’ve always been the type of person who likes everything planned or mapped out in my head. I seek solace in knowing that my future is certain, or at least know which direction I’m going. But now, I can’t plan my relationship and it kills me.

He’s going back to college next Tuesday, and me a week after that.

not looking forward to it at all. distance. and more distance. uncertainties. and more uncertainties.

Ok fine so maybe I might have exaggerated *a little* on how ugly my hair is (was, actually, more on this later) but okay, I’ll post pictures up and you can judge for yourself. Anyway what happened was, poor innocent me balik-ed kampung right? And it was a jolly time and all with durians and seafood and all sorts of hawker delight UNTIL I made the wrong decision to cut my hair.

There was this small salon that we always frequented since forever and I thought lalala nothing can go wrong right and it was much cheaper to cut there than to cut in kl. Then, I asked for a trim and didn’t think it was worth my money so I put on a brave face and said ‘ok layer more!’ which was a hugeeeeeeeeee mistake. Sigh, lesson learnt. Never ever want to get your money’s worth again and never ever let an ah beng ‘layer’ your hair.

When he was in the midst of layering my hair, I saw what he was gonna do and freaked out.

This is what he wanted to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

helmet hair!

I almost fainted ok and started shivering like crazy wtf. I told him sternly that no I don’t want this hair (which was a little too late cause he already cut it half way T_T) and he was like don’t worry after this very nice one this one is the latest style WTF I don’t care if it’s the latest style it’s damn ugly ok T_____T Anyway I was so stupid cause I was too scared to say anything in case if he gets angry and simply cut later wtf so look what happened:

Ok this is not that obvious

!!! It was supposed to be exactly like the picture I drew at first but after I freaked out, he toned it down and it became like this, which is still super ugly!! What kinda hairstyle is this!! How is this the latest trend?!

Anyway it didn’t look that bad in the salon but when I went back, it looked uglier and uglier. After this picture was taken, I couldn’t take it anymore and went back and demanded for someone else other than the ah beng to fix this catastrophe so now it’s fixed. fuh!

now it looks like this….which looks pretty normal except that it’s much thinner and shorter sigh.

Ok biggest dilemma in all 19 years of my pathetic existence so far:  should I cut it this short?? I only need to chop away the long layers..which I can do it myself for free wtf (sorry I was still wearing my pajamas here haih what to do life as a bummer like this one lah wake up whenever I want so don’t have to be pressured to bathe)

(but I shall put on a nicer top and pretend that I have something to do after this wtf)

Should I cut my hair this short?!

Pros: Err something different I guess

Cons: I’m gonna freeze during winter without my long hair to keep my neck warm! and my shoulders are kinda fat/big so I need my long hair to feel more secure, without it I’ll feel so exposed..

Sorry this is such a shallow and bimbotic post but whatever loser double loser moron whatever WTF

To further bimbofy this post, let me tell you what I bought in sg wang today. I know it’s crazy but sg wang is my favorite mall from now on cause everything is sooooo cheap. I bought 3 things today!! which is a LOT to me ok please don’t judge me wtf

You are never gonna believe how much I bought this dress for..on second glance, it’s probably not the nicest dress ever but who cares! it’s only rm15!

yes.

RM 15….!

I love myself sometimes.

Seriously not too bad for the price ok! I don’t care even if it’s ugly it still looks awesome to me cause it’s so cheap! even if I might never wear it…..

Cardigan! Rm25…..*big wet eyes

I double love myself.

Ok shut up! I know I have succumbed to lala style but this is really nice ok and it’s so practical for fall/winter! RM20 haih quite expensive but it’s ok if I ever decide to cut my hair short, I’ll need a scarf.

I think I’m starting to like my new hair..but I’ll definitely miss my long unlayered village hair =(

p.s: I bought Forensic Heroes II on dvd to watch on my 24-hour long flight! Slight problem: it only has chinese subtitle and my cantonese is just alright, so I’m kinda scared that I won’t be able to catch the story. Anyone knows where I can download english/malay subtitle into my dvds? Sounds pretty impossible actually.

lee chong wei is gonna lose i’m so sad i wanna cry T______T just please give us that one gold! our first gold in the history of olympics plsssss!!

16-4 now we’re so gonna lose T_T_T_T_T_T

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lose already T_____________T

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Look at lin dan’s stupid smug face also feel like slapping him! GRR! poor chong wei ok (like very friend like that call him chong wei. wei wei wtf ah wei ah chong) SIGH stupid throw your racket for what! throw shoes somemore! throw your socks also lah like that! stupid crowd I hate China now wtf

too sad to blog properly today, will blog about MY VERY UGLY HAIRCUT tomorrow. Sigh that’s another sad story for another day. It has two layers and the two layers are 5 inches apart wtf can you imagine?? The first layer stops near my neck and the other layer is somewhere near my chest T_T and there are only that two layers…..no other layers in between……………………….

haih whatever la talk about it also feel like crying again T_T